[pEa]----sOt0ngMeiz

2010-04-22T15:30:00.002+08:00

I always believe no matter what comparison we made with other human beings, things will turn bad. If the comparison made is a good one on you, there is no reason to be angry or upset about. In fact feeling happy and a little proud that we have done better than the ppl we had compared with.

Some ppl after 7 or 8 years of relationship but yet havent master the skills of loving the one living with you. I am upset just upset when such things happen. I didnt mean to spoil the great moments. I used to compare you with other ppl and you were upset and angry about it. After that I learnt not to compare you with others. I became very happy with the simple life we are living. I had no complaint no matter how bad those situations were as long as we are together and enjoying just the little simple life. I admit I cant accept my the other half not with me when I need him. I am a very simple person. What I need is just someone who is able to be with me when I need him. Money is not as important as that. You going for holidays I have no complaint. But by just telling how badly I miss you actually got a negative remark from you and you actually made a comparison with me and your relatives whose husbands are out of town to work. I am seriously upset. I didnt want things to go bad during ur trip and after you come back. But what has done has been done. I can only apologize that I have spoilt your trip. I am sorry. I made a wrong timing to make the wrong call and that actually make my day bad and I assumed it spoilt ur day too.

Sorry.

2010-03-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

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2010-03-05T21:52:00.005+08:00

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2010-02-10T20:36:00.002+08:00

This post I suppose will be a long ranting post I guess.

Having some kind of a bad mood that made my day crazy with happiness plus sadness as well.

Morning spoilt by my unreasonable mum just because of a silly mistake made by my sister.

And that actually dragged me into the irritating situation.

I could say that by going out is a very good choice to release angryness. But once back onto the armchair in front of the study table, the feeling just came by and never leave.

Got some serious thinking session on how to improve current situation but actually influence me to read F's blog. I realised things for everyone has changed. People in love used to be childish from the start. But when it comes to one big problem, fighting and quarrelling just comes to our mind.

When people in love hold their hands and walk down the long future path together, childish-ness get out of their life, but seriousness enters. Somehow miss those kiddy days together. But I get it back. I have lost it. For some reasons, I feel this is bad enough but for the other reasons, I guess its time to get to seriousness. I want to have a life of my own. Because I have been living in the shadow of someone who I hated so much sometimes.

I wish to get out of that cold shadow soon. May god bless me.

2010-02-07T09:52:00.002+08:00

Jan 16 was my latest post. Didn't get to blog that often because of some busy schedule due to MP and previously SIP. I suppose now should be a better time to say that I am somehow not in a very good mood to do the best MP i can do. BECAUSE MY MOTIVATION CANNOT BE FOUND~~!!!!

Vowed to do good for my MP but think now its slightly impossible unless my motivation has found me or rather I find it.

Apart from all the nonsense I have been going through for my school work, I still manage to find enjoyment. I could say that the "enjoyment" I have gotten has always been by my side. And the "enjoyment" has been by my side for 20 months plus!!:D And here we go, hand in hand doing so many things I haven't done before, same apply for my "enjoyment". Wish and hope that this wonderful piece of "enjoyment" can accompany me until the end of my life(:

Hard to say that things will go through the way I want but at the very least, I have always try my best to keep things in the best condition effortlessly. Anyway Chinese New Year 2010 is coming. I shouldn't say that I am looking for it, but I should say that I am looking forward for my "enjoyment" to come for house visit. And we can have steamboat together. Thinking about it, it is pretty cool.

Even before the actual day comes, we actually went to queue up for the Lim Chee Guan Bak Kua for 3 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We queue up on behalf of his sister though. So hot!!! So thirsty!!! So tired!!! So hungry!!! After that we went to have our lunch at this porridge shop. The fish porridge which I had ordered have so much fish bones! Somehow got pissed eating it, haha! But still, I have managed to get it wipe out before we head to shop around Chinatown streets. Bought Yogurt jelly but we got cheated. Should say we are blur lol. That China guy said 1 jelly for 100g. 100g for $1.50. So he got us 5. So should be $7.50! And worse still, he said give us 100g free. So means we are supposed to pay $6! But we paid $9. Damn it! No wonder I suddenly feel so expensive, but because of the hot weather, I just want to get out of the crowd fast. I think Mates still dunno about it yet that he had got cheated. Haha!

Shall stop here for today. Bathe and out to town later(= Ciaoz!!

2010-01-16T11:33:00.002+08:00

Almost a long one month I have neglected my blog.

I shouldnt say its really forget bout it, but just pure laziness to login and blog.

Indeed for these one month, a lot of things happen. Both good and bad..haha!

A lot of things come in handy for this month. Purely because planning before this month is involved. I would say that, what happen this month, is within my plan. So it seems that things have gone through what I want. So I am happy with my current life(=

Not to mention bout my special half, just celebrated the big 22nd birthday with him and his family(= And of cos with our new year resolution made and all the planning for future. Overflowing love from him, same applied to me. So I guess without much difficulties, we are going to walk into he 20th month annivasary soon~!!(=

Then I assume our 2 yrs annivasary, we are going to get seperated depending on his admission of his army lor)= Sad but happy that he is going to be trained to be a real man in army. Will end here(=

2009-12-25T10:11:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas People~!!!! :D

I will happily assume that everyone will have a beautiful Christmas eve night yesterday,

be it with friends or relatives.

But what most important its still the gathering and happy moments(:

For me, I had my Christmas Eve celebrated with my baby's home with JW and Aa and also his family members. Helping up for the food and eating the food, and even rejecting the food LOL. Rejecting reason being I was too full to squeeze anything else.

Over here, I want to thank baby for the present and the hardwork u have put in for this present. Its really cute with the bear with the costume where I could actually remove the hand off the coat. HAHA! Thank to his family for all the fun and happiness. Thank to his friends for the wonderful chat sessions. THANK GUYSSS:D

Last but not least, this year Christmas air is not here, I couldnt feel it tho I have enjoyed with my friends. I will look forward for more wonderful Christmas years(=

2009-12-19T22:11:00.002+08:00

Finally on a wonderful night like this..I can sense the super cold windy wind of CHRISTMAS~~!!!:D

Look forward for the Christmas this year and I promise will be every year with baby.

This year, I have spend quite a lot of time doing preparation for christmas with baby also. Not really helping out but just seeing the process and help a bit here and there.

Anyway have went to a lot of places with a lot of beautiful christmas treessss..!!!! With my cousin, my sis, my parents, and my baby(= But what most happy about today is not about the going out and rich christmas atmosphere, but is the moment when the acceptance of baby can be seen. Not now, but in a few months time, it will be a fresher moments for us.

Love is blind, but it is especially nice to enjoy with the romantic season of the year (= What more to say its next thurs, the beautiful christmas eve!!!

2009-11-26T15:13:00.003+08:00

Recently realised I have a habit of not talking to people especially to people I dun usually talk to.
Sometimes I prefer to shut myself up to prevent things from going worse. But I realise even without doing anything to some people, they just wan to find problems for me. Well? I should say that I prefer life to be simple and with a few good friends whom I can talk to.

Doesnt mean having lots and tons of friends, means character is good or even to the extend thinking tt good looks maybe the posibility. But for some reasons, I found out that some ppl just think tt way. Not saying that the above mention is not true, but to me this shouldnt be the way. Well, I dun talk much compare to the time in school. I have lost my smiles and my sense of humour due to stress from everywhere. Nobody can understand how stress I am now. I have to manage not just my own attachment company but with another management. Its just totally different from working another part time job. Its management company. Stress and smiles + humour do not come along tgt. There is only one choice for one. I have chosen stress.

My result of choosing stress is having to lose the trust from ppl around me. But tt is not impt to me anymore. Life is not just about having fun like last time. No more time for me to rest and sleep. I have to fastern my pace to get to the next stop. I cant wait for ppl who always stand by me. I just have to run and run and keep running.

I am not a perfect person. I am a human being who have flaws. That is why I do not have the ability to make every single one of the ppl I work with, to accept me as a friend or a nice person.
I love the silent around me most of the time. I love to joke and talk with ppl with common topics with me. I will prefer to stay away from ppl whom I dont communicate. And I have done that. But one thing I dun understnad is, ppl whom I do not talk to much, can oso hurt me. To keep cursing and swearing away from this blog, I guess its time to have jokes apart in my life, seriousness is all I have now.

If really buying a packet of food for me is so hard, then rejection is allowed. Some ppl just dun have to think before talking. Spatting out words, which I can do that too. All I just need is one pair of ears and I can backstab. Its so easy. But because I am a very realistic person, if I dun earn anything from those backstabbing session, then I will save those stuffs for myself. If I can get something I yearn for after back stabbing session, I will be the first to not to save those words anymore. I am not ppl who can let ppl bite me, I will not bite you twice, but thrice. Sit back and relax the pain. But to those ppl who dun hurt me, I will not hurt you lol..people who knows me well. You know(=

2009-11-18T10:31:00.002+08:00

Finally its a very beautiful but yet a moody wednesday for me.
I cant help feeling helpless and just feel like slamming myself to any place that I can sleep.
Wear spects cos eyes uncomfortable. Now see com, my eyes more uncomfortable.
Even spects oso dun wan to wear.

Anyway it will be like another 12 working days to the end of this internship.
I could say there are pro(s) and con(s), but I guess I still prefer my schooling life.
I miss the sports hall.
I miss my school friends.
I miss my juniors.
I miss wearing like shit to school.
I miss the lecturers' faces tho I feel stressful
I miss chionging and get angry over programming which I cant solve the error at all.
I miss my friends.
I miss the gossipping session.
I miss breakfast sessions with my freshies.
I miss after school hours.
I miss waiting for my beloved after school.
I miss taking bus 15 to his hse.
I miss taking bus 39 to meet jamie at her home.
I miss walking to school with her.
I miss miSS MISS~~~~~~

I will still miss my days during the internship for sure.
But what most now the situation is I really miss the life in school more than anything else.
Travelling is easier for me, and all.
I want to head back to school.

Tho major proj can be hard and stressful, but I guess this is student's life.
Nth has no stress.
So I will be counting down..Slowly one day by one day.

2009-11-08T09:40:00.002+08:00

Back from Malaysia(=
Much of a kind of learning experience than fun for me.

The trip by transtar coach bus was fantastic. 4hrs trip in total.
And we reach our Sunway Resort 1hr in advance. So we got to rest and chill for awhile
before we proceed to have a conference. My room mate, Brina.
Tho she always love to bring scariness in the hotel room, but in the end its always laughter.
Haha! After conference we are actually brought to Zen Japanese Restaurant to have our dinner, but lunch at the hotel made me so full until I really couldnt eat more. So we ordered soju. Drank a few cups but feel alrite.

KTV session! Sing and all and drink and all and I finally land myself in a state whereby I cant walk anymore. But fortunately, I was sound and safe back to my hotel in some ways. No hangovers despite tt much of drinking. That actually brings me to the second day where we have our team building challenge! This is the one that I am looking forward for, for this trip. SO FUN!!!! Tho we did not win any prizes, but what is more impt is the games we played tgt as a group and also taking care of one 50 plus colleague. She couldnt walk tt fast so along the way, she has been taken care of. We played a lot of games. All are very excited games. People who are afriad of height for sure will have obstacles to playing those games. But luckily those were fun! :D
Decide to upgrade our ticket to RCS version so we can play everything from the theme park. Then we head to flying fox and AVT and many more.. To my surprise we had physical and heart exercise from 1030am to 6pm which is their opening time to the closing time. I played until my body all aching. Cos most of the activities we played need to climb high level of stairs.

Did not manage to get any photo cos they are not with me yet. But everything was just so fun. Went back to hotel for a bathe before we went down for dinner at Pyramid mall T.R.I.F. They serve big serving food. And omg. Was terrible mann. We actually finish most of them tho we kept pushing around. After a sumptous dinner, we decide to look for shops where we can beautify our nails. But was close to 930pm already (the closing time of the shopping mall), so we decide to book apptmt for the next morning before we left for Singapore. Manage to do up our nails the next morning after our hearty breakfast and then we catch up with our coach and we bought A&W for our lunch!!! So cool! Singapore had this brand swipe out. So have to taste it oversea.

Went back home by cab and was super tired at night. Was fun and here we go, MONDAY!!! Working time(=

P,S: photos will be uploaded soon once I got it.

2009-10-27T10:58:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I feel like flying like a bird. Fly around to places I want to go. Only I can see what is on the land when I am flying! See? This is a very cool feeling, no?

Today just so happen to have time to view some of my friends' profile. And I was shocked that many whom I knew, but not close ones had changed a lot. Perhaps life after secondary school had been a great influence to all of us. I can say that some of them did not do as well as I thought while some really shocked me. They did much better as I thought. Me myself I think I did not change much. The route I have taken is roughly the same. But what I really hate about being who I am now and what kind of life I am leading is that I cant really have time for my own leisure and whatever I want to do. This is like me leading a blind life. I hope to get my life back.

Something I realise last night is that working in the office made me feel that I am all alone. As in there are rooms for communications, but I just slowly learn how not to talk to ppl. This is the worse part of me now. Ya, I agree with ----- that perhaps is not others. But it just me that is having the problem and obstacles. I cant blame nor complain. This is what I have learnt from my current life that I should adapt myself to such a environment. I feel sorry for myself.

2009-10-23T12:23:00.002+08:00

Soon to be it will be the end of oct, and then comes the november. Then will be the end of my internship. Think back, its a rather fast process. I have learnt a lot a lot of things even though I have completed it. But I can sense that my energy level is running low. Headaches bombing in my brains every evening after work. Phlegms in my body giving me tons of probs. I want to feel light-hearted as I first come into this company. But its just so hard to resume back to the old me.

I have grown up more and more. Eye bags getting bigger and bigger. Dark rings getting darker and darker. I guess all these become-uglier process will happen in our life as we grow up. I have yet to really look that terrible yet, but i guess its just a matter of time only(=

I start to miss school days where I can really slack with friends during lessons. Playing facebook games during lessons..oppspp!!!!! :p And even not catching up with lessons, and trying to catch up. Though they are frustrating, but they are not the stressful period as compare as working world is.

Previously I have work in high end sales line before. Now I am working in a Retail management. There is a very much big differences in terms of the job scope wise. But definitely the similar points the two have is that they have their own stress I have to handle. For sales, hitting the daily target is the stressful period, for retail management, doing up quality work in the fastest time is the stressful period. I have really learnt a lot, both from my dad's company and this current company. I learnt how to drive forklift also. LOL..its easy to handle. After the first try, I got it already. So I start lifting up woods and stuff and put them back in place using forklift.

Now that my life is kind of rather fulfilling, I hope I have ample time for my own leisure. I want to spend time for my baby, just like how we used to be when schooling. But those times back there have become our history. No way we can go back to those time again. So I guess what I love to do is to just think back about those times again and again like a replaying movie in my brain. I miss those days. Can the clock turns back? Back to those time? I miss my friends too. Having to eat lunch with them after lessons. And even sneak out for a snack in between lessons. Or even skip lectures. Those days will never be back.

2009-10-20T14:33:00.002+08:00

Motto of the day: I wish to have quiet moments for myself.

I DYE MY HAIR into REDISH BROWN!!!!!!
Not very obvious under the normal light.
But super obvious under the sun......
I love it!!!!!!

2009-10-19T09:43:00.002+08:00

Was watching this korean movie with pris and evan.
Then so happen that this thought just pass by me.
We have been seeing so many pass away everyday, be it natural disasters, sickness or natural death.
Around me, I have personally encounter my own family member just pass away
like that on a Chinese New Year Eve. Life is very unexpected. Similarly, my parent's friend,
also just pass away at home like tt without anyone noticing after one week cos he stay alone.
See the natural disasters in manila and many other countries? So many ppl were passed away
just like tt.

The movie we watched ytd, was about tsunami in korea, very upsetting and scary.
To everyone in that situation, anytime they will be gone in this world.
There is this particular scene whereby I have deep feeling about it:
This 2 life savers went on helicopter to save any people still on the sea.
And so happen that this 2 victims(1 female 1 male) he had previously met before.
The female victim and the life guard love each other.
But because of the male victim, who is a gangster kind, love this girl and violently said that they were engaged, which left this life guard to be heartbroken.

But at this point of time where any point of time the life guard who actually go down and save this girl first, will lose his life too.
Fortunately, nth happen. The girl was saved.
The life guard went down to save the guy, but when the saving belt is about to reach the helicopter, the guy struggle and drop down into the sea again.
This is abit kind of comedy but I promised I was swearing how childish the guy was.
So once again the life guard went down to save him.
Luckily everything was smooth, until when the saving belt was about to reach the helicopter,
the belt was damaged cos of the weight. It cant carry 2 person up.
As the tsunami wave is getting stronger, there is no way anybody down there can survive.
But the life guard give his life up by letting himself down into the sea just to save the male victim.
The female victim whom they deeply in love, was shouting pleading him not to do tt.
As promised previously, the female victim like the life saver's watch a lot. So before he went down, he took out the watch and ask the male victim to pass it to her when he go up.

Very touching!!!! So there goes the life guard down the wave. And the wave ate him up.

Under such circumstances, if i were the girl I will hug him and jump down tgt wearing his watch.
I cant bear to see the guy just die in front of me. I will feel the pain forever. So I might as well die with him. At least we die tgt. (= Not a childish thought, but when time comes, everyday can be the last day.

Do anybody ever thinks if today can be your last day? What will you want to do. It seems that this qns has been reflecting back to me several time, I have lots of things I have not start doing. I want to do but I do not have the courage to do. That the point. I really hope one day not long after today, I will find my courage to do the things I want to do.

Singlish in Singapore?

2009-10-17T10:02:00.003+08:00

Nth to update much about what I have done.
But basically this week I am not feeling too well because of this deadly flu bug.
On the verge of recovering, but i guess my voice will not recover so fast.
Sleeping quite a lot due to the medicine I have taken.

Kinda seperated from work this week, but I guess next week I will be pooled into volume and manning for sure. Once information given, I will step my engine oil and start going full speed all the way until the final.

Anyway just so happen to pass by channel newasia, talking bout singlish in singapore. Whether should it be recognised as one of the languages. Up till now, I should say that it is strongly disagreed by many people. But yet, everyday it seems that everyone around us are speaking singlish! And do those ppl who disagree on singlish speaks proper english and not a single bit of singlish? This is the point I want to carry out.

Singlish has been living with us for decades of years. I guess even before we are even born. This "singlish" topic has been carried out again and again for some reasons. But definitely for this time, its because of Ris Low, I shall assume everyone reading my blog knows who she is. She speaks realllyyy broken english. But what she mention about one thing is very right: Who can speak proper english in front of a camera. Even in front of our own classmates during presentation, I guess we are even tongue tied most of the time, at least for 1s. Am I right? So whether or not this is a fact, I guess ppl should try to stop discrimating Ris Low anymore. As she had mentioned, she disliked this kind of negatives feedbacks from public which we think is funny because we can make fun of her english, nope...I mean singlish(= But I guess to this point of time, all these making-fun should stop cos there is always a limit to everyone's patience. Things about her Boomz..and her "RED~~" and whatever words she says to create laughter for audience, should come to an end for ppl who still laughing at her singlish.

Well, this is my personal opinion. I guess everyone has the right to say what she wants. But perhaps, she is not fit to be Miss Singapore. She needs to have ample confident on spoken languages as well as her looks. She does have confident on her looks but not spoken language, which is suppose to be one of the criteria for being Miss Singapore. Singlish wise, we should stop making fun, but I agree that she is not fit to be Miss Singapore, not for her spoken english tho.

These are all what I am going to say about Ris Low's matter. Penalizing someone's error(s) is/are not suppose to be part of our life. That is why I do not like to speak to those ppl whom love to discriminate me and my errors. Once bitten twice shy, I prefer to be alone than being used as a laughing stock for everyone when my day can be much more beautiful without them.

I can say that right now I am very choosy on who am I going to open my mouth and talk to. I am not busy. I am not tired. I am not emo-ing. DO NOT ANYHOW ASSUME! Because the real reason behind is I DO NOT wish to talk to you. I am doing all these to protect myself from further discrimations. You might not notice or know that my personalities have been hurt. When coming to fun, you will nv know how hurtful the other party is. So the only way to shut your mouth and have my life led happily in a beautiful day, is to keep quiet and not talk. The best and only way.

-End of topic-

2009-10-11T09:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday partyssss the whole day.
Not going to club party but birthday parties(=
Tho I am not very close with them,
but over here I shall wish them a Happy Birthday to Mates's Supervisor, Rozi and baby(=
As well as Mates's friend Christine(=

All three of them share the same happiness with us.
I did not take a lot of picture because I feel weird taking pictures at not-close ppl hse.
Luckily throughout the 2 parties, baby has been a good host..

In the morning went to visit my bears and had our heavy breakfast.
I dunno I should say is lunch or breakfast.
We had sliced potatoes with one omelete with cubed potato, some fish nuggets too
Then we slack until pretty late until 3pm for his supervisor's home.
The mee soto his supervisor made was indeed a good one.
Nice lor...the curry puff are nice too(=

Was meant to go there see the baby but in the end we end up seeing the food more than the people there.hahah!
Anyway me and mates did take a picture with baby.
Will post up once recieved it.
The baby dun wan me carry)=
But mates play with her with his hand and she enjoy it(=

We end our part of the day by singing the baby and her mum a birthday song.
Then had a piece of birthday cake then we head to roxy to have mates's hair cut.
Poor brennan have to sit at mates's home first while waiting for us to head home.
For me I had a bathe before changing into the shirt.
Lucky it turns out ok.

Here we reach Christine's birthday party at her condo.
Was shocked to see how ppl dressed up.
Got 2 girls really dressed up like invisible and incredible.
Really the red and black tight suit.
And some dress up as mario....the red and the green.
As for me normal dressing, same apply to mates and brennan as well as their one girl friend who bring her bf too, sat with us. ( I din ask for name:p)
So 5 of us chatted tho I din know most of them well.
Photos have been taken but I would like to ask them to send to me.hahha!
Will do so soon.
We kinda end our day quite in a simple manner.
Then I head home for a rest.
Enjoy EnjOY ENJOY~~!!!! (= (= (=

2009-10-04T09:39:00.002+08:00

Went out to have fun on a wonderful day.
Started my day by reaching dear's hse as usual(=
Then start meddling with my work issue first before dear prepare a damn rich protein meal for breakfast for both of us.
Slack at his home for a few hours before we went out for bugis to shop for clothes.
But too bad, dun have anymore.
So we gave up on looking for tt clothes anymore.
And we went shopping around bugis around and end ourselves at illuma doing window shopping.
But I dunno y, I had fun walking around looking at nth from the shop with him.muahaha!

Had yogurt ice cream for our lunch.
Then we made our way to raffles city to see got wat other things to eat.
but dun have lehh...
so we bought ice coffee from gloria jeans.
And I still hungry lor!!!
to solve this minor prob, we bought some finger food to eat.

Walk to a bus stop where we can take bus to changi airport for dinner.
And we had popoye!!!!!!!!
And we sat wrong place. Cos the girl sitting beside us, keep making the nose sound.
GROSS!!!
Then the guy sitting directly in front of me keep making the sound to make fun somemore..
eeeeee~~~~~hahahah
Had fun with a fulfilling dinner like this then we head to viewing hall to see the planes.
We sat there for hours enjoying the outside scenaries.
Then we walk to buy mooncakes.
Thank you dear for the mooncake and the accompany(=

And this is how we start and end our day. Love Love(=

2009-09-27T08:32:00.002+08:00

Sat was a great event. I have learnt how to play golf!!! But not professional of cos. Just a starter. Was so damn drained out by this event which is held at sentosa golf club.. the objective of this event is to raise funds for school pocket money funds. For students who are too poor to have pocket money for food. This is sort of a high class charity event and indeed my first time participating it as a helper. It is a great enjoyable day tho have to wake up damn freaking early like 4am? Just to get things ready. Went home after the event bathe and slp all the way until next morning..woooot~~~!!!!

2009-09-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

WOO~~!! Start with a rushed morning..having to prepare this and that before going out. But it was so great when i reach baby's hse. This is where all the enjoyment comes in(=

I could say that every seconds of our life is an adventure. Whether it will be a good one or it will be a bad one, its always up to us to assume, to do and to make it happen. To me, I had always had almost great interesting adventures with my baby. Just ytd for instant, we had a rather fun lunch. Making fish and mash potatoes from potatoes!! My first time anyway(= It was a success and his sis was making fish..nice nice..yum yummy!!!!!SLURP~~~

After which we watch wowowee..and then go out to Ceni to buy m sports equipment. Visit my excolleagues for a while before heading to Lucky plaza for our pinoy dinner..hahah! Nice lehh..we had a lot of new food..(= Plus the yam yam thing..hahah! Love baby(=

2009-09-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

What a week..forsake my blog for bout days but I feel like one whole week. Reason behind, I hadnt had enough fun. Honestly speaking, I still cant get over the night cycling night. ITS TOO FUN TO BE MISSED AND FORGOTTEN~~!!
Well? What is over, is over. I can only look forward for future(= I guess this isnt a bad idea after all as I will be experiencing more fun soooonnn~~!!

Went to watch Final Destination and it was a disappointment. The trailer brings me hope tat this Final Destination 4 will be nice. But it turns out tt the ending sucks like hell..it was like the front part are so grossy and was thinking that the ending part can be a good ending..disappointment disappointment...

I can only say the entire process's best part is my baby watching with me. Though working can be fun at time, but I guess I need a real break to get myself off those moody period staring at the com working on the manual. Feeling down down down......Anyway results are out. Thank goodness there is no need for any 4.1 haha! And I got to admit that this entire poly life of mine is so damn lucky! I din get any supp paper before and I pass all!!!!! WOOOT~!! My IT seriously cant make it. SERIOUSLY CANNOT AH~~!!! If I am going to earn a living using that IT skill of mine, I think I will just sleep on the streets. TOO poor and lousy until equal to non-IT students. I have just proven that I have wasted almost 3 years of my time. Like what people say, pay fees to get a cert. Sounds awful but its true tho.

From this long period of time, just a simple review, I think the most interesting part is my friends, the one that I once admire so much and give me dozens of hope but in the end dash. After which not the end yet, continue to find my baby and here we go together for 14 months. And joining IITSC as my CCA which brings me fun and laughter and friendss. I can see a big growing up stages during poly. good or bad..i dunno haha!

2009-09-04T11:43:00.002+08:00

BBQ Night Cycling Trip 2/9 to 3/9/09

Half day to meet Jie Wei to go Mates hse first.

Wanted to grab sth from West Mall but nv selll..

waste my $8 cos i thought late so i cab down-.-

IN THE END NV SELL!!!!!!!!!!!

So meet JW at platform and made our way to eunos to cab down to mates hse

There we go, head to parkway to get our bbq items!!!

Cab back home and then prepare food

while I took a nap.hehe!

Waited for sam and aaron to come but guess they will be too late so we start packing

and here comes sam..

then head to one of the bbq pit for our BBQ!!!!

Set up the fire and all..whew!!

What a tedious job..lol

But I was only sitting beside seeing

while the 3 guys were doing up the fire..hahah!

Evening here comes aaron, albert, bo..

start planning for our night cycling trip and bike just parked behind us!

So cool~~

First time I cycle so high mountain bike...

Lucky I still can balance myself..

So here we go..perpare our stuff

and then our first stop to East Coast park Gay carpark:

the rest went to take a look except me, baby and albert..

haha!

Only 11+ a.m.

Our next following stop is Kallang bridge:

We stop there to take photos...

ddamn fun and cool!

here we go 12+ a.m.

Next stop Esplanade:

Looking for POSB machine for Bo

but the machine no money already!

DAMN!!!!

What a machine..

so we took a rest outside marine sq while sam and bo

went to marine sq for POSB machine.

But too bad..building are locked.

No wonder la..its 1 a.m. already ma..haha!

Nice 1+ a.m.

Next stop Near bugis(soya bean shop):

But we realise nv open..

but right beside it is another soya bean shop

so we decide to settle down..

replenish our energy with soya drink and youtiao..!!!!

then we continue our cycling trip..

it was a pretty 2+ a.m.

Next stop will be cycling to orchard!!!:

We realise there are many road blocks and stairs!!

So i keep coming down the bike for baby to push down the bike

if not my butt will suffer lots of bumps..haha

initial plan is to go orchard point..

but on the way there

we saw a lot of drunk men and prostitution going on

for my safety

baby and jie wei stop me..

so me and baby decide to wait for them at shaw tower

while the rest go ahead to take a look

And then we cycle to Ion..

took photos with those colourful men..

wanted to park our bicycles at every status each..

but security there stop us..hahah!

Romantic 3 a.m baby(=

Next pitstop we went is back to Kallang river:

Cos we went to wrong side..

so we have to take the bridge..

so here goes the guys carrying bike up the bridge..

poor guys..

and aaron treat it as a practice to carry his girl in future..hahah!

Cute sia him..hahahahhaha!

Relax there once more..

and we rest at the road side..butt pain!!!!!

Tired 4 a.m

Last stop East Coast Carl Junior:

Wanted to go kfc..but nv open!

So we head to Carl Junior for our free flow drink!!

hahahah..

that is our purpose actually

for FREE FLOW DRINK

hahahah...

me tired..so my eyes start to go watery red..

No mood for food or drink..

want to go back to baby's hse for a bathe

then slp...

Cycle back home with the rest

and put one bike up to baby's hse..

while the rest going for bedok jetty..for chilling

Sleepy and sticky sticky 4:30 a.m

Reach baby hse:

Bathe and sleep...

baby and friends head to jetty while i sleep on his bed..

miss baby and waiting for him to come back..

so nv slp well.

So msg baby where is he..

baby reaching home

Miss baby 7:15 a.m.

Return bicycle & head back for slp with baby:

Sleeping with baby...love baby so much..muacks!

Appointment with Sleeping angle 10 a.m

End of the trip..not enough slp tho slp a lot already...grrrr

Anyway pictures will wait to be sent

then upload

Love baby so much..muacks!

2009-08-31T16:02:00.017+08:00

NorthLight finally has come to an end. As a project manager for this project, I am proud that we have managed to capture the many moments of the students' smile and happiness as well as passionate towards a half day event like this. Even though the time is short, but from the feedback given, all of them love the event totally!! I am very proud to have this event as my first major social project as attachment. Below are the news published for the event(=

"I am pleased to enclose positive coverage on the training workshop held at the Shell Retail Academy last Friday. The news has been carried by straitstimes.com as breaking news on Friday night
(http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_422628.html), and includes a link to watch a pretty long video of the event on RazorTV (http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/local/35304.html).
Our key message that Shell is providing this real-life learning to students was mentioned in the 1 min 28 secs video, which has been viewed slightly over 160 times since Friday.
The event will also be covered by The Straits Times journalist, Malani Nathan in IN, a Straits Times supplement that is delivered to all secondary schools. Malani has said the article is slated for the 14th September issue. I will keep you posted if and when the article gets published."

We have a few stations for students, lets start from the forecourt..
Students get to do the windscreen, pump petrol and tire shine as well. We have coned up the area and parked a car there for them to try on. Every group will get to try. With that, I guess the car parked over at the pump island has the shinest car tires...hahahh!

Captions: As part of the mini amazing race, students are asked to clean the wind screen.
Like the above student, she is actually cleaning the car's windscreen with guidance from our checkpoint IC.

Above Captions: This boy whom I talked to, is actually an environment friendly guy..his cca in school is take care of plants!(= Well? But he is good at cleaning the windscreen as well..haha!

The second station we will talk about will be the handwash checkpoint. Spray powder foam and water to allow them to have the experience on how to wash a car..well? End of the day, the owner of the car once again has the cleanest car...being clean 6 times in a row...Applause(=

Above Captions: This girl, is spraying foams on the car. This is part of the process of washing a car which we allow them to enjoy too. All of them had a chance to do it, and surprisingly all of them like this particular activity a lot(=

Above caption: Learn how to pump petrol is also part of their games, and I am actually rather shocked that they are doing it well. I have personally gone through the training by helping to pump oil in customers' cars. Its pretty heavy and there are tactics to place the nozzles back as well. They are handling well..I am happy for them too.(=

Thank to all the NorthLight Students for the token..it sits right beside my desk now(=

This is a trophy to me thank(=

Thank mrs Chua for presenting this token to our boss Henry Chu(=

A final Speech by mrs chua before we all dismiss..

GROUP PHOTO!!!

Thank to all students and staffs who participate in this project.

Time has been put in.

Effort has been put in.

But I guess what is important is everyone enjoy despite

the time and effort spent in this project.

First time we had this project..

first time we succeed..(=

Thank everyone!!!!

2009-08-27T10:43:00.002+08:00

Has been rather busy these few days for the event. But what i can say its I feel much more relax compare to last week while preparing for the event. Reason behind, I do not want any last min work coming in at the last min. So I keep rushing things to keep things up 2 weeks before the event starts. I mean this has always been my practice for every project and work I have recieved. I want to do it earlier than the dateline given. I cant work in a mind with last min atmosphere flying in my room and my mind. Now that I feel much more better, I just hope that the event tmr will be a good and successful one. On top of that, I would want everyone to enjoy the program I have put up for all of them as a staff or students.

I miss after school days...

2009-08-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Finally banner is out..but when more things are done, the more white hairs can be visible..omg..Can i say that I am actualy the best friend of Stress now? Or can I say I am not thinking for all these years until when I start working :/

Ok..abit scary to say that I am not thinking until recently..lol..seriously man..came back from OT tonight really make me shrug away all my energy from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. I can say its not easy to make things work. Especially for an organisation like this. What I can do now is to shoot arrow to ask people to take charge..but it seems that I am bad at that. Maybe because I hadnt have the habit of doing so..I always feel very bad asking ppl to do things. After all, in that company, I am the smallest fly. How can a small fly instruct bigger flies to do things..right right right????

To make things more sensible, I am seriously not experience in being a big head for event. But the only thing I am good at is endurance and patience..so I shall be the one endure to the last and make sure things go well for that event. Though there might be surprises that I may not be able to handle, but I hope this will be the one of greatest opportunity for me to be who I hope to be in future(=

Stress as I know has exchanged away happiness but invites in tears and weariness. Thus at times, I feel I am having depression. I know wasnt tt serious. But yeah..just have to learn how to relax(= Come back to me HAPPINESS!!!!! I yearn for you!!!

Anyway happy 20th birthday to Sam!!!! Unfortunately cant celebrate with you guys..but as promise I will be jalan jalan with you one of the nights(=

2009-08-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning wake up to prepare to go supermarketing with my dearest loser..haha!
Went to buy lagsana food ingredients cos he wanted to prepare lagsana for lunch(=
The process was prety humorous with scoldings from his sister haha!
And I realise he has lousy cutting skills!!!!!hahahahhahahahahhahaha

But whatever it is, first time make lagsana is a good try cos really taste good...Just that if the shape is nice, it will be perfect(=

Good life today.but moody when the time is running out and I have to get home. Somehow feel sad and dun feel like talking much, just want to keep quiet and keep things in memories instead of grumbling and complaining..things in life wasnt as much as expected as I thought initially. Well? Like what boss said, stress has to be a good and even best friend of mine in order to make life easier and process work we are doing happily. I have been feeling damn stress up not because of the attachment company I am in, but most from my family. Whenever I reach home, there is always a kind of stress I want to avoid very much. Home is for rest and relaxing. Yet to me, Home is still doing work and still work. I have to deal with my dad's company work which made me a very angry person with no more patient anymore. I feel very stressful..I even hate to pick up phone calls and reply sms-es. Reason: I dun want to have my dad or mum calling to ask me bout my dad's company issues. I dun want to answer their stupid questions which they can approach their secretary or office girl when they use money to pay them. Y NOT ASK THEM?????????
SEE? Up till now, I stil dun see a point of hiring them if this kind of company issues keep coming to me for no reason. I am NOT paid a single cent to do that. So I seriously dun find a purpose to answer their answers with patient.

Working isnt easy. The only thing I can find happiness and relaxation from is when with my dear..I really want to be by his side. Despite how busy I am, I still hope at the end of the day, I could still have him by my side. But I know this is impossible.. we are not staying tgt..so yeah..I trying to accept the fact that I am just feelin tired and need rest, but if this is going to go on and on, I can just go bersek without anyone know what is the reason behind...even my family has been giving me problems to solve. Who else can I turn to now.

2009-08-21T18:29:00.002+08:00

Waiting for 7th month dinner opp company. Afternoon went to pray.

Tiring week I can say. I need to find time to have a break but definitely without kit kat..lol
I seirously had the courage to go weigh myself but hard mann...as long as I can maintain should be happy already.hahah! Anyway I start to drink and had a real bad hangover tt particular night when going to sleep. I just pretty well feel like sitting up to sleep. Feel like drinking more to make myself vomit all out, or if not I shouldnt drink so much..haha! But anyway what has done has been done..i cant help too..haha! But whatever it is, I still love the event night. Interesting night(=

Love plus hate, whatever it is, get over and done with is always what I am asked to do to solve the problems..I hate the Adeline I am now..cos I realise I have lesser time for myself, and for people around me. I become kinda too blinded by work until I start to stop communicating talking to colleagues around me about joke joke stuff..so yeah...sometimes its just that I need time for myself..yupz(=

EMO-.-

2009-08-17T15:37:00.002+08:00

Throw my blog away for 7 days.
Not because I really forget about it, but I am really busy with so many things.
Many many..like my own attachment work given,
my dad's company, and even my own personal life.
I need time for so many things, just a day rest out with my own activity is so hard already.
What more to say a time for relaxing.

What I can say its, I really miss the time with dear, anywhere and what we do, is always the only time i can relax myself and stop thinking about work. Of cos with my friends, we do relax too but of cos not as relaxing as with my sweetheart lor...ahah!Mushy rite..haha..anyway yeah, upcoming wed there is a major program coming out, as well as on a friday night and the following friday too. September will be F1..so expected that things will get some sort of messy with so many major things on my fingertips..haiz..when can i really take a break from all these stress which have been friends of mine recently.

Coming sat, I will have some event going on which I really look forward to(= Working life is really not easy, but I am always happy to land myself in my current company with good colleagues who really care bout me, and have fun and not just pure working. All these make me look forward for a brand new day.(=

Lastly, Happy birthday to jie wei..happy birthday(= treasure the mini surprise party cos i dun even have one..and i am jealous of you!!!))=

ok ok..anyway will stop here for today..i will promise to come back to update my blog with more interesting juicy news(= buai buai!!

2009-08-10T07:55:00.003+08:00

Hii all!Happy National Day!!!
Pretty much a belated national day..haha!
I wake up at 6 plus today..cos i smell serious burnt smell~!!!!
and somemore was raining having thunderstorm..
suppose to go hiking with dear and his 2 friends,
but I actually totally neglected the hazy weather these few days..
so yeah..forget it man...
and see today?
its raining and hazy~~!!! So i guess macrichite reservoir now is empty~~!!!with no visitors..

Wanted to get to sleep..but the smell really make me feel I am in a burnt room...
so might as well wake up to do some browsing of websites..
Most probably will go out later..
waiting for someone's msg before I go out..
tmr start work le..
and today is the last day I can rest before the busy week starts.
Will chaoz for now..
and promise to blog more about my life..bye bye(=

2009-08-05T20:23:00.002+08:00

Tired plus sian..because of work, because of little time for my own personal life. Because of a lot of things tooo happening in my life now, it seems that i start to lose part of my life just to work, just for the sake f producing work. Time is chasing up, of cos when i thought I have done a lot of things, it seems that, things do not appear to be that amount as I want. So ya...running one big round, I am still disappointed with my own performance tho I have put in a lot of effort.

Tonight will be the night I truly spend it to think of my own personal life. Looking at my dairy, I can see that its all occupied with work and meetings and datelines. Compare to the previous month when i am still schooling in school, its really different. Last time the lists were almost bout recreation, now almost are bout serious work matter. I see why someone call me a workholic, but I never blame him, in fact I always feel sorry for him in case he dunno. Even though I mentioned that I did spend a little time in between my work during working hour to think of personal issue, but seriously, those thinking dun last for a pretty 5 min. Too tired that I want to save every 1 second to close my eyes and rest. The working industry is travelling in a damn fast speed. A speed that I nv imagine. To get a credit from boss that I manage to always do well in my timeliness is not easy. Firstly, because the workload is uniquely heavy, and of cos there are many obstacles which slows me down. But even then, I still run against the time to catch things up.

Be it work or personal life, I guess what i need is sleep..AMPLE sleep to deliver a better piece of work. With this I guess I will end here. Reason behind: I NEED TO SLEEP..and yeshhh, 9:05pm its early..i know, but really sleepy so yeah..nitez guys(=

2009-08-04T12:30:00.003+08:00

Somehow feel that I have neglected my blog..lol..and of cos my friends also.
Too busy with attachment work given to me so I din really have time to blog so often like before.
I could say that working is more fun than study in school and doing projects lor..
I could say the module given to me for my attachment even though is quite heavy but its still things that I can do and have the abilities to do, unlike programming. LOL

Anyway I am so anxious this week, i hope next thurs quickly come..i miss my dear..i want quickly see him!!!!!!! Every day work work work, sometime dun even have the time to think of him. And after work, sometimes at night still have to work in order to complete the work given to me...so there is not really have a time for me actually. Someone says I am a workholic..i dun deny at times i am..but this is the only time i can find something i love to do..that y i am putting in so much effort to make things flow more smoothly than i expect.

But whatever it is, i still love the after school time in school and the working life in my company...
I miss my teachers and friends. I hope to see them soon with adequate time given to me..I got to go back to work now..so will blog soon..(=

2009-07-31T20:15:00.002+08:00

Went for V-power promo today.
First stop at seng kang so meet supervisor to go down station tgt from her home. Manage to reach there in time and after we met the few of us who are participating in the event, went to the opp to have our breakfast at yakun. Anyway was damn freaking full and I wear the boots to walk there. SO heavy and ugly(like macdonald shoes) lol...anyway i wore the smallest size liao..but stil can put 2 fingers at the back..i realise how small my feet is.(=

Promotion at seng kang was not bad and did manage to start up my own engine..and i think there is only 1 winner. After that, we went for lunch at serangoon garden. Ate until damn full and all of us are blasted with drinks to make sure we drink enough water and not dehydrate. Thank for the care. At serangoon garden station, was a great one. Realy very interesting ppl there with al sorts of character. Anyway after which, I had a ride to my house from my boss..thank(=

Tired day with crooking voice somemore got cough with phlam those few days already. Lucky tmr sat can rest at home. And reallly got difficulties talking. Really cannot tahan le...haiz...Need plenty of rest le...

2009-07-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

Some ppl love to be love by people, as in love means love. Not the friends friends love. But really those kind of guy love girl..that kind. Who dun love the feeling of being love. But the problem is with everyday nonsense like asking ppl out for lunch, asking which company I am working and wanting to come to fetch me out for lunch. Or bike me out for movie after that. All these are not a so call enjoyment or happiness to me, but in fact a kind of irritation. As more and more coming in like this early in the morning, it can be really pissed.

Standard qn if ppl who wants to know more about me, will be if i have any bf. well? If I have? what will u do? If I do not have any? What will you do? See the diff? Its actually not about what can be done on their side. But whether can I accept them as someone whom I can really go out and enjoy myself and seeing me as just a friend just like me and colin, me and ks, and me and other guys. What matters is the mindset. I dun mind going out with a friend, but i hate going out with a person thinking that he has a chance to get sth he wants. Only if I really thinks there is chance then I will do so. But I haven do so yet so far. Online met friends even if from TP, oso still online friends. I will nv meet them, I will nv go out with them.

I had enough already. I want to stop all these. For once, I really feel tired and irritated by all these nonsenses by all these ppl. PLEASE STOP!

2009-07-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

There is no fairness in this world. I am not applying to all ppl. But some nonsense ppl like F**ker are just nonsense to me. I am also human but just standing at a different point different angle. But that doesnt mean I am not worth the respect which others need to have. I take words lightly, but I really cnt stand this anymore. So what if F**ker has no time for me, so what! If I dun take pride in the things I am suppose to do, I wun bother to go and ask for it. Asking for things are like giving me more work to do. But I am actually doing that because I want to put in the best effort. But it seems that I am not the one NOT contributing, so too bad, I am just going to say if things are not done the way which are expected, then be it. I cant be bothered too much also. Waste my time, waste my effort. Might as well I do sth else better.

There is no need for me to be angry, but the sight of how that F**ker settle the matter, its too easily exposed that I am not the one who is supposed to be respect, so I guess I wun need to respect that F**ker too much also. I wun be treat ppl fake, but if under circumstances that I am forced to, I will. Sorry to that F**ker if I cant be truthful to you, because you are blacklisted by me and surprisingly, you are the first to be treated with my fake feelings. I can tell you sth: The attitude you are giving is gross and I seriously doubt that you have really treated others with true feelings? O man, you are just worse than a beast.

2009-07-26T08:23:00.000+08:00

This year birthday is indeed the most interesting and happening ones for me(=
Apart from what happen on my birthday eve, I went out with dear on my birthday. Went to his hse to chill for hours before we set off to esplanade Stock Pot for dinner. He gave me a birthday treat..haha,then we had a cool time tgt and the ambience is nice with him around. Was having NDP rehearse at marrina barrage so from esplanade we can see too. So both of us stood there to watch since it just started. We saw lots of airplanes and navy ships..The effects damn nice!!!!! I told dear I will be proud of him if he is one of them participating..haha! Went to look for cake, bt dun have...dun have a lot of varieties to choose from in esplanade, so we decide to go to suuntec to see(= We wanted to head to the cake cafe we went to the previous time, but was replaced by other pizza house. So we decide to go home since we had a longg longg day tgt already.

Give dear a kiss and thank him for everything. And he suddenly told me that he forget to take sth from my bag...lol..so the first reaction is to see what he forgotten and I felt sth strange in my bag when i am searching for his belonging. Lol...is a small box. ITS MY PRESENT!!!!!haahahaha~~!! Dear really sweet lehh...still say nv get me anyting ask me how..lol...thank for the surprise(= As for the content of the necklace, I shall keep it to myself, until i wear out one day..hahah! cos I want it to be the first to be seen by me and secondly is dear when i wear it(= I love ytd(= DEAR, I LOVE YOU muacks~!

2009-07-25T09:37:00.011+08:00

My 19th birthday today~~!!

Ytd night despite deciding not to go for the company gathering but our big boss Henry after knowing that today is my birthday so ask me out again by the fastest means of transport since I just reach home. And the timing I recieve the msges and calls is 6 plus 7pm. Since I have been invited to go down, I cant possibly turn down again, so I took a 10min bathe and rush down to marine sq again for dinner. In the afternoon was at marine sq too, playing bowling with friends since half day ytd haha!

The boss gave me until 8pm to reach if not sth would happen to me, provided he knows is my birthday the next day.hahah! Unfortunately, I reach the restaurant by 8.10pm..and once I reached, he was like "ok finally the girl reach...she is going to die...muahahahha!!!!" that kind of look and aura!!!hahahha....but anyway I did settle down to have my dinner, but gestric pain so I only eat 1 spoonful of rice and a few satays. After which we have a small talk at a corner outside to thank the staffs for working so hard and achieving a good grade(= Then we head to Kbox!!

Thinking the time will be a little early so join them AND I AM SUPPOSED TO JOIN!! Instructed by the boss..lol!!! Went in the room, OMG!!!Anyway its VIP room that we book, cos there are whole lot of us..hahha! And boss ordered damn lots of alcohol and coke who dunno how to drink alcohol. I drank 4 cups of beer but I think I drink too fast...within 1 hr, I drink that 4 cups which is terrible.I nv drank that fast before. LOL...then feel a bit giddy..so drink cold water and eat sweet first if not if i go home, i am going to die..lol.. Thank H.Hua for the thought to bring me down to the taxi stand..and thank poh siew who brought me down...Can walk..but I think walk slanting onli..hahaa!!Thank Thank(=

The company pause their singings and sang me and JS a birthday song and had a cake each and a candle each to blow..hahha! Thank to all of them..really thank you(= Then before I leave at 10 plus...my supervisor gave me a birthday present...its doremon!!! Shake head one..very cute lor...THANKQ!!! And have to thank my big boss and boss for giving me taxi fare home for 2 way trip..haha! And T thank oso..thank for NOT COMING FOR THE BOWLING SESSION~!!hahhah no la no la!!!Kidding~~~~~~, but thank for the care and concern hahah!(= Thank for the people who wishes me happy birthday and my classmates and friends who rmbs my birthday(=

Thank to:

COmpany -- given me a big present the dinner and the kbox
Supervisor -- The cute present(=

Colin, desmond, Yufei, Eric, Jon(my fresh), Fan who address me as mates's wife..lol..super cute lehh uu!!!, Kheng Siong, Flofae, Jim, poh siew, danny, brina & veon, jun jie, rafi, welson, and many others
Thank!!!(=

Aaron who is the first one who strike on the clock on 12am and send me a birthday msg...ya u indeed the first one before anyone inclding mates..hahahha!!!!THANKQ((=

And last but not least, Thank to my dear even tho he is not the first to msg birthday wish, but his msg is the sweetest(= Love him!!HUGssss....

2009-07-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

Back to office today. Its pretty tired to be back in a quiet environment with no smell of fuel and 7-eleven stores greeting me in the morning. So I did my best to keep myself awake. and i did by drinking hot drink. From what i see, I guess music into my ears is the best remedy to keep me awake. lol....

Tmr will be half day for me. So after that I will be heading to city hall to meet colin to celebrrate my birthday in advance with him(= Thank you in advance first(=...
Have to thank Rafi and Kuik who wish me an advnce happy birthday first..I love you guys muacks muacks~~!!hahahahah....

Miss ppl..miss sch...and miss almost everyone..haiz

2009-07-22T07:13:00.000+08:00

Great night with baby. Firstly I was released early so I head to baby's hse first since he on the way home. We watched Angel & Demon but I realise towards the end of the movie, I still cant tell what is going on about the storyline.lol..after that becoz baby complains he is hungry, so we head to east coast for our turkish meal..the pita chicken roll is nice! While baby ordered pita beef roll. Both are set meals and we spent $15 tgt.

After which we went to the beach for a walk, got ants bite me!!so pain..and so i decide to use baby to support my body by lying on him. We were talking bout stomp lol.... Saw a dead fat long white object..And both of us were arguing whether that is a dead fish or not...haha! In the end its a dead fish..I win(= Cos we saw lots of small crabs walking around it..haha! Anyway was pretty cool with craps conversations going on and on until we walk to the nutc there to buy some groceries home. About 9 plus.so decide to head home. And ya..reach home bout 1 hr or so. And bathe and sleep. Baby so cute, why? Cos when my bus came, he wants to give me a kiss but I turn away..haha! And he thought i dun wan..but i wan!!! So i requested for another since its free!!!.hahahahah!!!ok.....shall stop here. Will update soon(= Muacks baby!

2009-07-19T11:07:00.000+08:00

2009-07-19T10:50:00.000+08:00

Latest up to date pictures..
by the blogger, Adeine!!!

Dad, baby zane, and cousin derrick

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baby zane and my mum

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the couple's flower nice right? I get the chance
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Apple & cousin Alvin..

The Pranksters..lol!
(me, my third uncle, cousin pris)

me, cousin pris and sis

me trying to do miracle with the pole

We are staring at the eyes!!!

2009-07-19T09:11:00.000+08:00

Da Ge's and Apple's Wedding(=

From morning taking wedding photos tgt at esplanade, clark quey and marina barrage.

From early morning 7am to 11am.

Walk around and travel around by car.

All of us have to be at our best condition despite the warm weather

and high heel shoes.

Me? I am the only one with blisters on my feet..lol!!

but stil have to walk if not oso can do nth.

Cannot drink too much water if not waste time.
So its like a lot of restrictions ytd.

I never knew taking photos can be sooo hardd..
and super tired..

not just me, but all the ppl in the car, the 7 of us.

Have to wake up 530am just to make up all these..

not easy..

Marina barrage is a very nice place which I think during the night will be the best..

Seeing ppl putting kites, I feel like putting one oso..

cos honestly speaking,

I haven put a kite before.

That is how sad and boring my childhood is..

Anyway the entire day was basically seperate into 3 parts.

Morning: Photo taking
(Which photos are all with photographer..
will collect the soft copy from him once he has done with all the editing)

Afternoon: Chi tea ceremony
(also with photographer..and we collected some ang bao..haha!

from both male and female's family)

Night: Night wedding
(took damn lots..which have been uploaded)

Let me not do the writing too much cos I am pretty tired after
the whole day ytd.
Anyway I was really pretty happy to see the newly wed couples

tgt as one to prove that despite probs and probs,

they still choose one another as their last stop.

And that shows me that love is unpredictable

but with patient and communicate

the best of the best will be right in front of us(=

Regards,
Adeline *wink*

**Some photos are small so please do click to enlarge thankQ**

me..and my candid shots by cousin pei(=

me & cousin pris taken in the day and night

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Me & sis *twist* (=

me & baby zane(=

me & Big auntie

2009-07-17T20:53:00.001+08:00

Crack my brains for more and more but nv once succeed. So I choose to give up and stop drilling my mind for all these nonsenses anymore. Last time I used to think that all these are sth that should be done. But what I found is that what I have done is always not appreciated, or rather I dun feel appreciated. So forget it lor. Stop already. Nth much I want, but it seems that I think I cant feel what I want anymore. Basic thing, simple thing, cant do. I dunno what to say.

2009-07-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

Really tired because today from morning until the end of my working hours, me and eileen spent our time outside. Going stations by stations to do investigation on how good the CAs, CSAs and SMs knows about V-Power. Surprisingly was not very good because there are a lot of confusions in the training given by their own SM individually. Anyway there are so many vouchers going on, so confirm there will be hard for some staffs to not confused also. Really tired. Today will sleep damn early ba.

2009-07-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

What is over has been over.
Hard feelings have gone..
No point not continue-ing my life.

Just recieve a updated news from Supervisor that I will be assigned to paya lebar to work
as pump attendance, cashier and shift manger ba. Cos my report I need those:/

Anyway wanted to join Tommy and Henry for badminton after work but I'm not equipped.
So have to give it a pass. Was having great chatting session on IM with tommy today.
At first I got his name wrong, i thought is TONNY!!!hahah...then he say :"U THINK WHAT...TAO NI ah~~!!!" So we start giving names to one another..hahah!

The DAOs Family:

Tonny - Dao Ni (soya bean drink)

Me - Dao Hui (bean curd)

Eileen - Dao Suan

Andy - Dao Gi

LOL...funny right? And Mr Dao Ni say he is a rotten Dao Ni that y so black..hahah!
And me this Dao Hui is thick skin one.hahah!walau...damn funny. Talking and chatting halfway,
and talk bout Dao Gi, Henry came in...lol! Close shave..lucky nv talk bad about him if not tmr can no need go back work liao..hahah!

Anyway before Dao Ni went off without me for badminton with henry, he gave me a turtle..pump air inside one..hahhaa! Cute lehh...haha! Thank Tonny!(=

Tmr site audit so need to be in proper attire and the safety vest..haiz. Then go back office after a good lunch and then start my report again lor...I shall end here and start to browse through the things i should do now. BYE~!

2009-07-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

Season of hatreds and strong sense of urge to just declare dead.

For me there is only 100%.

And that is the max, no less no more.

The feeling of negative
+

The feeling of positive

100%

Current situations I have:
65%

35%

100%

Ok look bad for my situations,

and that is the reason why I have been flaring over small matters

if I cant sense the silents I want.

For now, everything seems happy-go-lucky.

All thank to Jamie, Master Diz, and Jared.

You guys may not be directly going into the problems I am having

but definitely the care and concern given to me

I can sense and I will appreciate(=

In life, I suppose there are always quiz for us to solve

Mistakes for us to amend

But whether should we have the courage to do so

Its always another bridge in front of us.

I always trust that with courage everything is possible.

Most of the time I din do well.

But I pass.

This is always something I always proud of

of myself of cos.

Not many people can do that.

Give up is always the end route for most people

if things cant be done.

But why not try?

No harm trying

but injuries will be there.

From young, I have been taught:

" Get up from the point you fall, and you will do better for sure"

"Smile if failure comes to you, cos its the start of the successful destination"

That is why I always have been smiling and laughing

No point having a long face

because at the end of the day, it will still come back to you.

Can be applied to many areas in life.

But I have to thank someone

because of someone, I got to take things easier.

I got to take things up faster

and throw things away faster too.

I never regret anything I do.

I never regret any decision I made.

Because I know I always put in my best effort to the last.

2009-07-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

SOmetimes I think is glad to have sth to do

to get myself busy with...

Until I have no time for my own personal life.

Does sound abit discouraging but I really mean what I say.

Its a very simple logic actually:

'When I am busy with my work,

I wun even bother to care how I would or rather people say'

Reason:
' I am too busy to care to bother,'

I am a very sensitive person.

People who knows me well enough will know that.

I can take things easy

but to some certain time or topics,

I can be very stern and careful.

So very sorry if this post is saying about someone whom he/she knows

that he/she is the one I am refering to.

No particular reason but I just cant stand

words that are of useless meaning

and

sounds as awful as shit.

I tried to get things as good condition as I wanted to be.

But I know its always hard.

I cant be always issuing everyone a piece of comfort and peace.

So please, instead of me doing the thinking

give sometime for yourself to stress yourself

to think of ways to give me a piece of comfort and peace.

Enough for today's fussing matters.

I will proceed to my work now.

Even though I promise my supervisor E not to do work

after working hour:/

2009-07-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

Went for 3 meetings today. With loyalty, call operators and sales and retail.
DAMN TIRED~! Have to really pay attention which is very hard for me. Cos a lot of acroymns and stuff until I somehow lost in my own lalaland. lol! But anyway I will be doing most designing work this week. Next week have to work on process already. So yeah busy internship.lol!

2009-07-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

4th day of SIP

Attend a meeting from 10am to 1pm
But surprisingly, I din even feel like sleeping..cos its too interesting
Talking bout issues on so many things
which get me hook up on so many politics stuff now..lol

Anyway as a whole we went for lunch at Bukit Panjang
whereby there is this coffee shop selling real nice bak kut teh
but the pig intestine abit bitter so i din eat
onli eat the meat from the bowl of soup and veges
Went back to office about 3pm..
and rest for awhile before asking Eileen for work to do.
She gave me a plastic stand to ask me draw 3D for her
cos the constructors need the drawing to manafacture it.
So i draw lor. Did manage to draw the one she wants by 5pm then we head home
but we miss the company bus!
So have to take bus 78..lol! longgg waiting hour..
but in the end get home eventually so yeah..

2009-07-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

3rd day of SIP

HSSE day for SHELL!! So all of us have to attend this gathering at Republic
Singpapore of Yacht Club.
DAMN COOL (as u can see from the picts)

Went there to help untie those goodie bags first then settle down
before we proceed to have our breakfast.
Carrot Cakes and popiah..
ok ok lor..popiah nice onli..lol!

Anyway I got to have the chance to present
the HSSE quiz in front of these 140 consider-VIP ppl in SHELL
WAT THE HELL~!!!!!!ITS SCARY~!
I admit i feel damn freaking afraid but
I did try to calm myself down
but i din expect to crack any jokes
but they laugh..ya so in the end i feel much more relax.haha!
GM give me a "good" hand sign..god mann!
whew!

Anyway went to 2 sitevisits and get a feel on how to use a extinguisher.
then we proceed to see the incomplete site at commonwealth
erm..i got to see things build underground(=
anyway my assignment are pretty all out
so starting to start real work soon..
shall wish myself all the best first.

2009-07-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

2nd day of SIP...

Early in the morning have to start reading up on some confidential materials from SHELL
instructed by Eileen. Receive it at around 10am and start to flip to the first page to get the feel out of it. As usual, coffee to keep me awake. But because when starting to read on page 6 of the entire book, I have trouble with it cos of the many acronyms such as CMD, PDS, DM, AC, AL bla bla bla...many many. So look for help from Hwee hua and manage to get a 58 pages list of acronyms from her which is done by Dennis some few years back.

Tried to get a grip of those acronyms used by the supervisors. And trying very hard to absorb what I have read. Knowing that my job is to produce a new one since there are new alliances coming in after year 2007. So I need to know the stages of OPS to make sure I know what to do for the REALLY-IMPORTANT-REPORT!!!!

Mathematics comes in handy this time to help think of a formula to formulate the volume of the respective stations too. Anyway I will get the information I want by tmr and will start to gear up soon. Tmr is HSSE day, whereby we will assemble at Republic Singapore of Yacht Club for some briefing before we are disperse into our respective stations for the SAfety day(= Looking forward for that as this is my first time.

Tired today so sounds moody in my blog. LOL. Anyway I drank a lot of cafeine stuff today. Morning green tea, then after the OPS appear in front of me, I bring in a cup of cafe latte, then not enough then another cup of chocolate. After that, too cold, so went for another cup of hot crysthamen tea, then another cup of chocolate and cuppochino.haha! Not forgeting during lunch I had a cup of cold lemon tea too. See the amount of drink I drank today? Plus my own 500ml of water. DAMN~~!!Make myself sounds like some camels. But indeed I went to the loo so many times lol.

ok ok..tired already, shall turn in early today cos tmr will be a more fruitful but definitely tired day cos probably not in-house for tmr until 2 plus ba. Ciaoz..(=

2009-07-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

First day of SIP!!!
Well? I can say its pretty much fun and interesting.
Not in terms of working with friends
but with those rather big shots in SHELL.

Initially thought will be slightly late
cos of the jam, but in the end supervisor oso late
cos of one fatal accident happen in the highway
so yeah..and lucky me,ps and danny escaped from tt long jam
but rather unfortunately for the other 2.
So we start our introducing and stuff at 10am instead of 9am.
everything went well until we went to see our GM,Henry
SO FIERCE LOOKING~~~
and ya, really got the officer look..lol!

We went for lunch as company treat us?
or GM? I dunno..haha!
But anyway we have been treated at Hilltop
DAMN NICE!
We had SASHIMI!!!!
Curry fish head, real big one!
2 kinds of vege
tofu with rojak sauce
beef
and mutton
and last but not least the fried chicken drum sticks(=

Cos eat with company so only eat my ginger fried rice
din eat much of the dishes
but still damn full hahah!
Picts below and the place is really at hilltop..lol
Then we head back to office for desk allocations
then at 3pm we assemble tgt for site visit at paya lebar shell station
yupz(=

ok ok..i shall stop here for the day cos i need to write my journal entry
Enjoy my picts!(=

2009-07-05T09:54:00.001+08:00

Fri we had our NAFA. ehhhh~~~my body aching like some old granny on the streets now. lol.

This is my results for my NAFA:
1. Sit and reach: 33cm (because i have short arms, cnt be blamed hehXD)
2. Standing broad Jump: 150cm (because I have short legs, co cnt blame oso(= )
3. Sit ups: 42 times ( din play cheat!!!dun anyhow accuse!!!)
4. Pull up: ZERO!
5. Shutter run: 13.8s (i see so many ppl fall with bloody knees, i rather run slower than fall)
6. 2.4km: 17.10min

Ok..so these are how i fare for my NAFA test. We waited from 3pm until 8pm for our 2.4km to start. Erm, tt will say tt we start only from 5 plus onwards for our 5 stations and thn 2.4km we have to wait for those guys to come back before we have our foot running on the bedok resevoir track. And I am so freaking hungry and thristy..and we still have to run 2.4km. Its really my body energy not there at all.. but even then i din stop when i run 2.4km. Tt is my stamina..haha! Fortunately i have my stamina if not i will be dunno the last to reach?But anyway whatever it is, Its over so ya..take a break from tt(=

Sat i went to have a trip down to my working place. VERY FAR. and i was lost when i going home tt time. Realise there is no bus a bus stop so had to walk further down more to find one with my bus. LUCKY HAVE~~!!!But the weather so freaking hot! And i seriously get burnt soon. And the stupid bus 78 almost dun wan to fetch me cos tt one is a highway bus stop. If dun wan fetch me i have to wait another long long time again lor..lucky i flag my arm and the bus do a emergency braking lol.. Reach home took me 2 hr cos highway jam.

Anyway today willl be mugging at home. Because tmr will be my SIP already. Till dec..so guys, if wan date me, at night near my area if possible or sat sun..haha! Cos weekdays i busy le!!!! First day of SIP, i wonder how izzit going to be mann..i am going to miss my dearest!!!!

I was told not to put in too much effort
For there will be case where ppl might take for granted
I still love ppl
Despite showing ppl lesser love
Hope ppl can understand
And in turn show me more love

2009-07-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

Attended the [Up-Your-Service] course today. One word:RUBBISH!
Totally crap one. For the entire hours of session, we have been listening repeated stuffs.
Again and again~~~~~non-stop!!!=.=
At first was ok, but the second part onwards the entire feeling just goes down to the bottom because too draggy. Talking repeatedly bout what is those perception points. OMG~~and those actions....Are DAMN GAY ok!!!!!! still ask us to follow damn. onli yong sheng and joanne follow in our class i think.hahaaahahaha!!!!!!!!

Ok, i think both of them are going to kill me if they read my blog..hahha!
and the bloody benjamin yap, just get so engrossed in tearing papers. LOL~~!!and the pathetic name card which the guy design his own. Cos we challenging each other to see who tear out the plastic faster..haha!Of cos in the end he wins la cos i dun even know how to tear out oso..lol!

O ya, our table has a educational sexual talk from guo bin oso..lol! damn freaking funny,hahah!
ok ok enough for today already.

Anyway have to wish my dear jamie a happy 20th birthday on sat!!!!!(=

2009-07-01T09:55:00.000+08:00

Been really stress up these few days. I have my own problems which I haven know wat to do next. And now, my parents give me more problems, not in terms of family problems, but my dad's company problems. Ask me do this ask me do that, I am not super woman who can handle such heavy responsibilities yet. But because I know that there is no one who can handle such confidencial stuffs in my family, I have to take up the responsibilities.

My mind and soul are seperated on both sides. If I have no problem on my own side, I wun mind having to help out in the company. But I have my own problem. I think i going to explode soon already. I want to settle my own problem first. Then settle other matters.

2009-06-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

Not feeling well. Partly because my shoulder is aching, my leg is pain..but I did promise myself tt I must attend the NAFA this friday. Run finish and get over and done with. Then will be my SIP which I will be dealing with it alone soon. Tragic to hear I am alone this time. But happy to say that my birthday is coming~~~!!!

Some of the birthday wishes I have gotten:
1. The special baby who has been with me ups and downs for 13 months(=
2. I got a branded bag and pouch and a watch
3. My hair grew longer~~!!
4. I will get a set of bikini from my cousin soon for my birthday.
5. Singtel give me birthday treats to gelare (15% off all cakes)
6. Got some freedom from my mum.

Some wishes that I haven grant yet:
1. I want adidas jacket.
2. I want burberry perfume.
3. I want a black tube dress. (sth like the one Steph showed me)
4. eh..i dunno liao..up till now ba(=

I will be working on birthday eve. So hopeless..but since my work place is near clark quey, if the company good enough can bring me to those area jalan after work..ahahhah!ok la..still hard to say la...hahah! anyway those are my fat hopes..anyway i going for signing of contract in my attachment company. lol..then we will know what exactly we will do. Then all these all that. Final year...well? very fast going graduate le...haiz..miss my poly life already. start to miss already.lol!
ok i going to turn in soon already. nitez guys!

2009-06-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

Ehhh, sad to say this is the first time i use the laptop webcam

and this is the first time i know there is actually this function in my laptop

lol!!!!!!!

lousy me..tt means i still dunno my latop well after almost 3 yrs..tt really tragic)=

anyway this photo taken on my dear's bed while he is outside playing his game

hahahahh!!!!

its actually black and white

but i edit to this..haha..ok la..better than the original ones

anyway today first day for sch for SIP training.

i should say i am not ready for school

but i am ready for SIP

I love to work than studying

work at least there are motivations(money)

even though its onli allowance this time

but stil have money wat..

if not sch-ling no money bt have to pay sch fees lor

so might as well pay but paid at the same time

lol!ok ok whatever it is, really hope SIP will go well

and then MP and then bye to poly..

then here i come uni!!!then my dear army

omg!!!how am i going to survive!!!!!!!

2009-06-27T12:31:00.000+08:00

Theory of A deadman - not meant to be

Its never enough to say I'm sorry
Its never enough to say I care
But i'm caught btw what you wanted from me
And knowing that if i give that to you
i might just disappear

nobody wins when everyone's losing

it's like one step forward and two steps back
no matter what i do you are always mad
and i, i cant change you mind
i know its like trying to turn away one way street
i cant give you what you want
and its killing me
and i, i starting to see
maybe we are not meant to be

there is still time to turn this around
you could building this up instead of tearing it down
but i keep thinking
maybe its too late

2009-06-26T20:31:00.000+08:00

Went out with cousin today..interesting day but we walk and walk and walk...

I duno why with just 2 of us we always walk very fast and go a lot of places one. We first head to orchard and went to Theory to look for milton and i saw my ex-colleagues..well? tt cool we have fun talking hahah! We went taka to have our lunch..its BREEKS anyway. THE SERVICES SUX! still have to pay 10% of the service charge and 7% of the GST...like shit mann...grrrr~~!!!!

We ordered student meal and add the top-ups. Was full very full i mean initially but cos the service is so damn freaking slow, we waited until not so full anymore=.=DOTS lor... In the end we sat there from 1130am to 1pm sharp..lol! total we spend $16++...everything is ok..but services charge not worth to give at all lor. But we din bother so much after shaking my arms and stretch out my hands to ask for services.

After which cousin wanted to look for formal wear so ended up in heeren..tried to look for my friend but he off day tt day..so we just head to suntec to walk walk lor..took bus 36 but in a ah so manner..hahah! Run like a auntie like tt to flag for the moving off bus..lol.but in the end manage to get up..hahahahahhahaha!!! went to suntec eat again..walau..thought wun eat after the heavy meal in the end eat somemore...aiyooooo! then we walk walk to look for bikini..haha! did try a few and have one in mind already..and tt will be my birthday present this year from my cousin..haha!Thank in advance first..(=

Then we are thirsty then look for bubble tea after one person pass by us with a each-a-cup bubble tea. And believe it or not, we took almost one hour to found the bubble tea shop at suntec...stupid mann..somemore so ex than outside then not nice somemore...haiz..anyway photo photos photossssss!!!!!

2009-06-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Transformer today..I can say its nice and humerous and very action pack..nice!
Go watch but its a 2 hr plus movie...so ya..at the last part can be a little touching..hah! But not to the extend to cry la.

Anyway today is definitely not the today i want. But anyway its going to be over soon. And a brand new day ahead for tmr. And stuff. Hope things around me will get better. And I really want to be the old me. Can i?

2009-06-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

As requested by Steph:

My FION handbag which cost me a pretty $388
*Not taken in a nice place..
and the lighting not good enough
so not as nice as the real one*

But whatever it is, I like can alrady...

I will be using it starting from tmr morning(=

Love love!!!

Anyway ytd went to baby's hse to prepare lunch for him..

A spageties meal and a salad meal.

I went to marine parade to buy all the ingredients after my test

and first the ITSB test is like
DISASTER!!!!!!!!!

I fail for sure..no need say...

y put test afer holiday ah.Make no sense at all.

Only make ppl holiday mood cnt study lor.

But whatever it is, ITS OVER!

sooooooooo0000000

its HOLIDAY before attachment lor...

SIANz.

tmr going to watch transformer with dear(=

exciting day ahead..hehe!

2009-06-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

SIP allocation is at Shell eastern Petrolumn Pte Ltd. Well? I suppose its a good one. At least the location itself is at town area..so i no need to like travel to some run-down place mann..

tmr ITSB presentation..hope to get over and done with soon...

Thurs go watch transformer with dear!!!!!

6 July to 4 dec is my SIP period...so people..i can onli meet u guys for dinner or sat or sun.....time restriction...supre tight schedule now..sianz!

2009-06-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

Went to town today with my mum since no sch today.
Have plans to buy a new bag and a new undergarment..muahahha!
In the end I did buy after searching high and low for them.
Its hard to look for a suitable ones. But lucky all are found in the Takashimaya
But EXPENSIVE~~~!!!!!
I bought a Fion Bag for $388 and the undergarment for $69.90...
Ex rite?Ya i know so that is y i have promise myself to carry tt bag for damn long..
and i dun wan to keep changing bag just like my watch...
not going to change here and there.
Cos expensive stuff does worth in this manner.
They can last longer in good condition(=

After shopping in town, decide to go suntec alone while my mum head home first.
Wanted to shop alone there but too tired when i reach there.
So decide to take a bus home from there straight..
Reach home feel so sleepy but I am glad I have bought things that i wanted to buy.
And fortunatly those are wat I want...
so a happy but tired day actually
Yawnsss~~~~

O ya!!!!TMR ITSB TEST~!
**and i haven study properly yet**
only read thru mann..sure gg already la...
but watever it is...
I am really in a holiday mood...

2009-06-20T12:31:00.000+08:00

From the time where 11:11 am starts to strike in my eyes, I decide to put things into my heart and soul. From the point I learn to pick things up, I must learn how to put things down. But I realise I have been picking things up. So as my life goes on and on, more and more things dragging on my feet. No more space on my feet, so i put on my back. Carrying doubts and sadness around with me, putting on masks thinking tt I may have put things down, but all those are some wishy thinkings of mine.

Sometimes I think I am tired. Sometimes I think I am just too lazy to carry on. Sometimes in a midst of thinking, I think I have found my solutions, but after those thinkings, I found out that they are all somethings I used to make myself happy a little while only. Wants more desire more but still never achieve anything that I want. But I know something: Those are not the one I want.

Life is hard but yet we still have to carry on. This is our fate. Have to learn how to have more strength to carry more things on my feet and back. Cos I know deep in my heart that there will be definitely more coming. Its always the starting point when we realise things had gone bad.

2009-06-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

End of CommunicAsia event for 2009. In this event, I have made several nice people even though I din manage to work at the same hall as Mates. But I still think that it is better in my own sometimes. Take this event for instance.

I really have to thank raymond and larry for the very interesting 4 days tgt. O!And the zhi wei also...damn freaking funny la k..of cos there are many more. Atiqah too and evonne and her guy friend even though they talk a lot of dirty languages..lol! But indeed every one of them have brighten up my days. And I look forward to working everyday seriously cos of them.

This photo has been taken today..which is officially the last day of event. We took it with the blackberry mascot. Pretty fun! haha~!

And raymond: You are nonsense mann! Dun anyhow go touch my ear! And anyhow randomly take my eaten tempura's tail to eat man...u so random that the 3 of us just stare at u..

knowing that the second tempura u may be interested so let u eat oso lor...haha!

pass me white cards oso no need to freeze thee to touch my inner palm line wat! So gross lehh u!

But if my bf there u sure dun dare one right....haah!similar to if ur gf there oso..(=

but anyway still have interesting moments with all of u la...

Ciaoz guys...shall meet up some days? I know larry wants...cos u look pretty upset during the last hour of event..haha!just contact me lor...raymond there can ask him out through facebook..haha!

prediction

2009-06-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

had my life predicted today.

conclusion is:
1. I will have 2 of my colleagues in my attachment company giving me politics problems. Solution is to be patient lor..haha!
2. I will find my husband in the second relationship..(=
3. Not suitable to have my own company
4. Study in SIM cos if i go NTU, i will be a drop out student, cos i dun hv any enthu in studying anymore.
5. The course i should persuade is business..
6. Highest rank in my working life will be a chief/supervisor in a department at the age of 32 at most.
7. I will get married in the age of 28.
8. My partner wil think anytime will be the best time.
9. Will encounter a lot of problems (problems like my family or money or wat) before marriage.
10. Will retire at the age of 50.
11. After 2-3 yrs of flying around the world to enjoy life, i will still be back to do part time job
12. No need to worry bout my children, cos they are independent.
13. I will have a car will be a sedan or at most a volkwagen which my financial can bring me to.
14. My last lap of life will end at age 82.
15. Will have a lot of competitions from my work life, so must be patient and prevent conflicts.
16. Husband and me turns out to be a very good pairing one even though can be logger head but still very suitable. ( and i know which horoscope(=)
17. No third party in our relationship, so learn to let go a bit.no need worry
18. Health not a prob

ok..all for the day..and this is wat i got...thank larry. cos of u i got a lot of knowledges from my future and glad to be ur secretary cos those qn the fellow ask is so common sense qn.hahah! so tt y i manage to ans those qn..not cause i am smart..anyway i use ur judgement to judge another person's one.. tt y..hahha!

tmr going to BK for breakfast with dear!haah..love him!Muacks!

2009-06-17T20:24:00.001+08:00

Indeed the black beauty of year 2009..

Damn nice right?

omg~~!!!I wish to be like those rap stars in L.A. who earned a $10,000,000 a month!

Then i can buy sport car i want.

but yeah..DREAM ON~

Its damn freaking expensive for just a luxury car man.

what more to say a sport car!

But whatever it is,

I am not those who will drool over handsome guys

but i will drool over handsome cars!!!!!

those sport type...i love those!

Not say i love those ppl who are rich

but just an eye candy thing

which wil motivate me o work extra hard for money

After all these viewing of beautiful babes, let just talk about my day at work(=

its a pretty interesting day.

cos i have officially made several good firends

and we talk real lots of rubbish mann...

babe oso walk me to almost my hall to get me to work

well?thank(=
but anyway today job is interesting in terms of not those ppl

but the work i have done and stuff

the lunch today is more of chi food

but i think better than ytd one

hope tmr food will be nicer..mahahah!

tmr can wear sandals to work cos data entry ppl no need to show our leg

so we can wear wat ever we wan...

jus the top must be more appropriate lor...

anyway my ITSB test haven start studying lehhh

no time!

but i guess tmr have to bring to workplace to study mann...

sianz!

Till here for the day...shall work harder tmr

and the better of tmr(=

GANBETTA~!<=

2009-06-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

Start work today. Wake up as early as 5.50am to get things ready.
Cos first day have to meet especially early to get ourselves prepared plus temparature taking.
Meeting point is a confused and so me and baby walk with so much doubts thinking where is the meeting point exactly.
Met a guy named Raymond, and i know he is oso data entry as me in the same hall, so ask him where to meet and stuff. I wanted to work with baby at hall3 but too late. We should have mentioned to pheobe bout tt during sat not today. So too bad, we have to go seperate ways but I am contented tt I made a lot of new friends. I am the youngest still...lol.

Lunch is tempura not bad lor. Then have a ah ma just scold her way into our area to say want to make IC then produce IC photo. lol! she come to the wrong place man..but our supervisor's supervisor talk to her so like yaya like tt. then in the end both of them got conflict, so ask the security outside to chase her out. She stubborn dun wan to go out. So i talk to her in hokkien since she speaks hokkien one. Manage to get her out of anymore trouble. Then i head back to my workplace(=

Tired whole day long and went home after tt. But walk to hall 3 to wait for baby. All the buses today are damn longgggg on the waiting hour. I was like so damn hungry and tired. But when i reach home, i really want my bus trip to be longer. Cos my mum start nagging once i step home. SO FREAKING IRRITATIN~!!she complain so many things,'skirt too short', 'nobody ask me work so far', 'wear too high heel shoe', 'work just to play with friends'..bla bla bla...NONSENSE~!ALL BULLSHIT! Want to give her a slap to wake her up.but i really no energy to do anything, so just keep quiet and hope to put her into silence immediately!

Now blogging, fee much better after saying all my sadness and everything. But indeed this job has created more trouble than anything. Firstly, it creates some rough edges btw me and baby, and now me and my mum's naggyness, which really really gave me a lot a lot of inconvenience and headache. All I want is peace and those who really in need of money. I din cause any forcing and of cos i din cause any inconvenient. And i dunno y my mum just purposely wan to find trouble for me. I take it as if she dunno how irritated I am from the start, just tt I know I have no situation to get angry and flare over this kind of 'non-relationship' matters.

Whatever it is, i hope this event end fast and school term start fast. So i can go back to my normal life and complete my yr 3 and continue my life ahead.

2009-06-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

went for training for CommunicAsia thing..as usual cos involved many people so waited for damn long....and someone just cant stop pulling his long face. Making me so hard to make things better. Sometimes really think that if I din make the choice to look for someone to work with me, things will be much better. But anyway, this is the first time and last time. I learn my mistake not to ask him to tag along anymore, only make things worse for both of us. Can feel pretty irritated, cos nobody likes to go out with someone pulling a long face. You know how hard can it be? yes..its extremely hard. But cos this time round is i ask him to join with me, so i might as well just endure till the end of this event and no more for such things tgt anymore.

But after that, even though pulling long face, we still went to suntec to walk....we went to superlicious to have our dinner. and then to PC show to get antivirus...wanted to find a quiet place to settle down, but its town area and its raining outside so we made our way home respectively. Just in time for my 930pm korean show(=

And that is how i start my day and end my day..

2009-06-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

Love dear deep deep..but he dunno i upload this photo..shhh~!!!

2009-06-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

Finally back to home. Last night too tired to blog or even use the com so din blog. Reach home around 8pm. Manage to clear my clothes by 9pm and settle down for TV.

Wed morning was a boring one. Cos my dad secretary came to our hse to explain what the contracts are all about before signing so I must be there to listen too. After that, the secretary fetched me to my driving centre to register my dirving license. Have a real LONGGGGG waiting hours. I waited for nearly 2 hrs. In the end, I was done only at 1.40pm..then took bus 13 to dear's hse. He cook maggie mee for our lunch.

Reach his hse around 2 plus 3 then rest awhile, slack awhile bla bla...then we had our lunch.
After which my mum called to ask me buy 4D for her, so have to go to 4D outlet to buy before 6pm. We headed to parkway for it first then went to G2000 to buy black formal shirt and a tie.

Dear look so smart wearing formal!!!!!Then we head home to rest cos he got flu bugs bragging him. Took panodol while i bathe. We slept until 7 plus then head to Lagoon at ECP for our dinner. We ate stingray and satay!!SO NICEEEE~!!!But too many ppl. So we had hard time looking for seats. After that, we decide to walk to bedok jetty so we bought curry puff there eat. Nice lehh...we slack there until 9.15pm before heading to a far-away bus stop at dunno somewhere to Geylang for dim sum with his colleagues. We were late anyway.

Have a walking distance to the dim sum shop, so we have to pass by lanes to reach our destination. So at geylang, sure got prostitutes. Got one prostitutes caught my attention, not the way she dress, cos i am a woman too. Even if she is naked, I oso wun bother. She shouted to a pass by man: "Oei, accompany me lehh...KANENA!" Then gesture to the man...lol! I thought must be gentle one? Why this so violent. Then I kept holding dear's hand tight. And he hold my hands oso..hahah! First time go there so of cos will feel abit unsecured lor.

Lucky we reach the place already, but at the junction I saw this old man, and this prostitute hugging each other at the middle of the junction. one word: CRAZY! Cars cnt drive out or in because they are causing road hogging to happen, or road accident if the drivers just go ahead and hit them. They wan do all those things go somewhere else la..aiyooo!

Reach the dim sum stall and manage to find them but sill feel hot despite got aircon. Eat 1 round of dim sum we stop already. All full...so we head to eat durian...muahaah! Abit dun feel like eating tt time cos very full, but ok la..my stomach got a bit of space left. So eat abit lor. His colleague Mike, ordered 4 durians and we ate all. Around 12 then we completed our eating. Then we disperse while me, dear and another of his colleague walk with us to the bus stop. Bus 13 came fast so we bid farewell. Reach home 12 plus so i went to bathe first then watch Hitch after dear bathe finish also. Watch until 3am then I sleep first. Cos i cnt wait already. My eyes closing lor...

Next morning wake up at 9 plus 10 but that pig still sleeping until 12 plus. Haiz...

Our lunch we buy it from the market. And i ordered Nasi Brayani..so much the rice! Can be only finished if I have a morning, lunch and dinner. really! Tat much until terrible. So left overs let dear or his mum eat lor. In the end dear ate it=.=

Back to home. But miss the days with him. Having long walk with him is really very happy one. Even though we din speak much..but ya, I am fortunate to have him by my side..I love him...and this is how we celebrate our 1 yr annivasary. Simple but really nice ones(=

2009-06-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

Pass my driving..but something very surprised is tt I am not tt happy and excited as i expect myself to be. I think I am looking for something but I am too blind to see that something. Maybe a car? I dunno...might not be also. Cos got car no car, I wun drive tt often either. Tmr I will go apply my license at the driving centre.

Anyway today went for briefing but wasnt as long as the waiting time. Lucky got mydarling with me. If not I will feel damn lonely. Even though we dun talk much, but at least there is company ma. But dear working in hall 3 while i work in hall 6. So i calling the person in charge to put us tgt..hehe! If not will defeat the purpose of asking him to join me to work already wat.

Driving from 725 to around 9 plus...tired...and today walk to bugis and all more tired..will rest early today.

2009-06-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

Today went to bugis with pris to pray. Then meet the siao char bor and her friend at cityhall lor. Then we are in a grp of 4s..Settle our lunch at Just Noodle. And with our lunch, weisi and her frend manage to enjoy a free flow ice cream. Then we meet ks and adam..talk about jason..so funny..at explanade we crap a lot as a grp of 4. So damn rubbish man..we talk so much stupid things...like mediaCORK!!!!hahhahahaa....and the WOW thing..hahah!!

All nonsense anyway but was so fun(=
Thank for the day guys...

Schedule for the 2 weeks holiday:
Mon: Jalan with cousins
Tue: Driving test; ToaPayoh for meeting up session; dating
Wed: Dental; dinner at The Lagoon; Supper at geylang; Overnight
Thurs: Home sweet home on the evening; dinner at home; sleep
Fri: Study for ITSB test; Rest at home
Sat: Training for CommunicAsia
Sun: Cousin's house
Mon: (Maybe going out with sister and cousins)
Tue: Day 1 at CommunicAsia
Wed: Day 2 at CommunicAsia
Thurs: Day 3 at CommunicAsia
Fri: Last day at CommunicAsia
Sat: Rest at home; Study for ITSB test
Sun: Get ready for ITSB test

So basically my schedule is confirmed with the above listing...can see that these 2 weeks have been quite pack with things...So I really wish my life can get on smoother with the help of Goddess to let me pass my driving pls!!!I dun wan to fail again....if not i wun not have time to go to and fro to the driving centre anyway. PLEASE!

Ok now, i got to stop my blog posting for now...and then relax a bit first..hahha!

2009-06-07T08:31:00.000+08:00

Went out in the afternoon to do some errands basically. But i suppose the weather is too hot for a human being to walk happily under the sun. I just feel that I am burning the moment my skin get in contact with the sun man. Once i stepped out of the bus, I took the shortest route to get my contact lens, then walk so fast into the shopping mall where aircon surrounds me(=

Change my dental apptmt and get it done in 20 min...wed 12pm..should be ok ba..actually i hate dental but wat to do?Need to wash my teeth wat..so have to go lor. Went to lib to return my books. Then quickly head home for my korean show. At least I feel much cooler at home. Yawnss~~tmr going bugis to walk around. Going to the new shopping mall to take a look again whether almost done already not..hahah!

Haiz..later got driving revision..and its the last driving revision before my test...this time round I not going to care so much already. Just drive lor. I dun wan to drive with tons of energy wasted there. If not next time I drive everyday, then I wun love to drive anyway, so just keep it cool, get over and done with lor~ I realise my weakest area is not the S crank, but is the parking moving out. Cos i cant see the blind spots at the back..tt y i tend to go all the way to the back and or if not will knock the pole in front. haiz...sad ah

2009-06-05T21:56:00.000+08:00

Interesting day today. Not really planned before hand, but still turns out well. In the morning recieve my auntie's sms and then head to her sister's hse to see baby zane. He cannot recognise me anyway. Went to opp sch market to eat with them. And thank to Auntie cos she treat me for my lunch.

Meet peifen for movie: Night at Museum 2. Not very nice but some parts really hilarious. After movie, we went to meet up with my auntie and er yi, and her husband at tampines 1 for chengdo..hahah! Ya, and my auntie treat again. Treat peifen oso....and this girl keep denying but in the end still being treated..haha!Order Hokkien mee oso..nice but ex lor.

Walk around the place and then head to yio chu kang for driving. Thank peifen for the acc(= And thank auntie for the treats today(='

ANYWAY HAPPY 1 YR ANNIVASARY~!
to my darling

2009-06-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today I can say that I am declaring myself a freedom asshole out in the streets again. Why? Cos I have summited ITSB 129 pages report this morning! HCIF ytd already presented. So means that elective has put to an end already. Left with ITSB test on tue morning and thurs morning formal presentation after the 2 weeks holiday and I am done with term 1!YESSSs......

Then we will start to have our pre-SIP training before we start MP or SIP first. Depends which we are selected to go for first. Consider myself a freeman, I will start my holiday from today onwards hahah....quite cool(=

Tmr I dunno what plan I will have..but just see first lor..if not I guess I will be alone till 4 plus then I have lesson. Anyway I pray hard that dear quickly get away from the serious headache he had...cos with that, I really dunno how to talk to him properly. Haiz..poor thing.

2009-06-03T21:20:00.001+08:00

Tmr summiting ITSB project le. I should say its cool and happy to be busy lol! At least I feel like I am having stress from work now. Talking bout ITSB, we have done 100 over pages and tt as a whole is good! Cos i totally din expect it at all. That time see my senior's report, their one 60 over pages but like a lot. Then i admire. Now I admire my own report. All thanks to all my grp mates for efforts and hardwork(= I enjoy working with u guys mann....haha!

During the holiday, I seriously going to have a hard time again. Why? Cos nth to do!Working in communicAsia will be best but have to wait for confirmation lor. Even then tt will be from the 16-19 june. So first week of holiday still considered free ba. Mon I can rest for one day. Tue I got driving. Wed dental then thurs fri free....then the following week, mon free, tue to fri might work, then 2 weekends as usual then start sch for ITSB test and presentation again-.-

So basically my 2 weeks are rather occupied la. But still got breathing space for me to do some nonsense work which i nv done during school days(= Ok ok..back to my proj now le.Ciaoz

2009-06-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

Jogging again. This time round better stamina: 2.4km non stop then one more round. Total distance run today is 3km. But still slow.. but girls nvm la, got run can already. Did some sit-ups and have a game of table tennis with colin and cy. Then we went to have lunch while waiting for ks and yewf to meet us.

Went to lib to relax but think we too noisy lol. Went to look for dear, in the end i joke too much till too overboard. Some minor disputes but somehow solve. My fault my bad. really sorry(=

2009-06-01T20:35:00.001+08:00

I am looking for people who needs accompany like me.
I am looking for people who feel lost like me.
I am looking for people who is as free as me.
WHO??

All my friends all so busy with their assignments, and yet I am so free that I have nth to do. I can hardly find anything to do leh seriously, that y everyday wake up is like a tragic to me. I miss my dear very much but he is too busy for me at this point of the time. I can do nth but to let him do his work. As for my own friends, they are busy too. And in the end i can only find firneds that are not from my school. I feel so sick and sianz. I want to work I want to have project.

I dun wan to slack so much man. I feel so sick and sian...There is a lot more things for me to do. But Singapore too small and thus I cant go anywhere lor. Go here go there oso same.

I have been thinking what will happen to me if my life in future is not like today. What will I do in future if I am not what I am now. I love to work to keep myself occupied with experienced with money with colleagues. I hate to spend my time with freedom, boredom and naggy-ness. I really want my life to be the one I like it to be. I hope to start SIP soon. I want to be like year 2 but not so tt busy. But perhaps I got used to the busy lifestyle already. That is y i need to keep myself busy and not free like this. I am bored!

Long bus waiting session

2009-05-31T08:08:00.000+08:00

Went to toa payoh to buy my facial toner. Because I had bus pass so i got take bus all the way. First i will take bus 806, then bus 853 then cross the road take bus 88. So its like 3 buses there. And so happen that all the 3 buses took pretty quite long to come except for bus 806. And the worse thing is the sky was so dark!!!Its going to rain heavily already and i haven reach my destination. And true enough when i reach there, it started to pour but not tt bad as i expected. I DIN BRING UMBRELLA~! So just run across the street lor. The queue there was so long until the time I bought my stuff the rain outside stop already. Can imagine how long it was la.

Going home was much more traagic because of longer waiting time. Reach home I cook maggie mee eat lor..hungry ma. Then go online playing facebook then watch 27 dresses(= Nice movie..but i haven watch finish yet left 30min of it...have HCIF presentation slides to continue but later ba..i only done abit onli..lol

ok..shall stop here for today..so tired..yawns!!

2009-05-29T19:50:00.000+08:00

Morning went for a 5 round jog at the school stadium with YM. He is indeed a man with a few words onli lor. Late for 1hr and still have the cheek to take photos and send me and ask me guess where is he. Because I am not familar with the places I went, I got almost all wrong. LOL...in the end I do my warm up myself and then went to jog 4 rounds without him first. Midst of the second round saw CY, then continue to jog after chatting for a min.

Hot weather indeed but yeah napha is just a pretty good 1 month later from today. Its officially 29th june already for you guys information. CONFRIM already. SO GO TRAIN NOW...haha~! Girls no need la, but i mean guys onli haha! So tired after jogging, have a bathe and then wait for tt fellow to settle down before we had lunch at business. Went to feedback session at LT10 and talked about some issues and rather funny lol. The way some ppl put things is like cracking a joke! LOL...but it was an interesting 1hr(=

After tt with all my friendsssss having friday classes in the afternoon, I din really know who to look for next so decide to go somewhere myself so i let the bus take me to the somewhere. If bus 69 come first then i will go walk around at tampines area. If bus 15 come first then I will head to PP to jalan. In the end us 15 came first and then I bumped into ran. Turns out he has nth to do too and haven had his lunch. So we went to the hawker centre beside PP to eat lor. Then go to PP to eat the SCOOP durian favour ice cream..SO NICE~!!Yum Yum~~ we order a double scoop durian favour and then we share. Walk to the comic shop to see his comic then head to arcade for a game before his friends rang him up for a meeting. So from there we head to the same bus stop but different bus.

All the way back to home. And slept in the bus and realise how tired I am after the long jog today. I run 4 rounds for 12min...and is damn slow lor=.= ok ok..shall tune myself back to project mode and do my presentation slides for presentation on wed!!!!!!!CIAOz

2009-05-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today is dumpling day. Wish all my friends a Happy Dumpling day where you all get to eat dumplings..lol. I ate one today in the morning before class started, its nice! My mum's friend made one. Normally my grandma will make, but this year cos my uncle just pass away so we wun be making dumplings lor. But my grandma make nicer dumpling especially the tradition dumpling(=

Since my mum's friends made a lot for us, so my mum ask me to give some to my precious baby. Bring for him 4 dumplings(= for him and his family lor.

Today is an interesting day. I get to have lunch with jamie and somebody and colin but before tt I had lunch with mates and friends. After tat, me and jamie and somebody went to bedok resevoir to chill under shades from trees and then end up talking and talking non stop until 4pm when dear msg me to ask me where I am. In the end leave the both of them at sports complex while I rush to the east gate for baby.

Head to his home for harper island 06. Nice..so go watch..haha! After watch finish, we sleep for awhile before he send me to the bus stop when i going home. Dear give me one packet of my "sisters" for me to eat on the way home, perhaps knowing that I will be hungry? But yeah, he is rite, I will be hungry. So with the "sisters", i realy not hungry already until I reach home for dinner just now. Love him so much even though its abit salty but dunno y the taste just so nice..haha!

Thank to jamie and somebody and also to my baby for the wonderful day. I love them all..but different kind of love. I love jamie and somebody but as a friendly love. I love my baby as very very love, cos of the busy time, he still manage the little time for me, I am happy enough already. Just like tt I am happy already. Baby so sweet..muacks~!hehe

2009-05-26T20:51:00.001+08:00

I have said many times and many times to myself.
I shouted out in my heart which i always want to shout out loud.
But I couldnt, cause there is always something that hold me back.
I know once i shout, means I have put an end to everything.
Silent and silent and still silent from me.

I fail. I am enjoying myself too much. Its time to wake up.

I really need help.

I start to lost my balance.

2009-05-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

Went to east coast park early morning to chill alone there. It was rather an interesting trip alone even though i was alone. In the midst of the chilling session, was kind of bored, so called a few friends but in the end all sleeping accept for wei xiong. Thank buddy for chatting with me for hours on the phone!!!hahah...

Actually after today i found out tt I am a person who indeed need to be spent time with. Instead of feeling lonely first, I feel angry first. I got this prob ever since the day I know lol. Dun wan to say too obvious. But really, sometimes things really make me feel so bored and irritating. Singapore is sooooo smalll.. and my home sux! I hate to stay at home and I hate to go home. But of cos the best time to go home is when dinner time and sleeping tt all. Sad..y home to me is like a hotel to me..but it turns out to be tt so too bad.

Sometimes i really cannot stand my mum..she is being very ridiculous at time until i am so fuck up mann! I still respect her tho by not argueing back but I still feel assulted cos I am definitely scolded when she feel very good after going out with my dad. So simple..a little thing like not boiling water she scold me like I went out to murder someone like this..she yell and shout and say things sarcastic-ly..damn freaking pissed. But i really got to say I got used to it until i can get over by spouting nonsense to my sis..cos she got involved in the ridiculous scolding cycle too..lol...poor us!

Ok actually i am rather free but I got to go do my other browsing stuff(=ciaoz

2009-05-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

I have faced some problems and I dunno whether those problems to me are considered problems to those guys out there not. There are a lot of cases of relationship failures these few weeks. I kind of got frightened. I dun wan to get into this kind of trend. Listen to few songs that I have downloaded today and ya, it seems that a few songs did carry out the words I wan to say. As much as love is concerned, I always feel insecure and not confident of myself, of others. I had already loosen abit of my "grip" already. And I hope with abit of air going through, there will be better outcome. I want to say something to all guys.

To the many couples who broke up, gf no need bf's money to survive, we have our own money to spend. The only thing we need from bf, is a simple thing, just a simple accompany when we need you. I understnad that guys will feel abit pissed and tired and sick of us sometimes, but a lot of times, guys did things that make us so upsetting just tt guys dunno. And being the gf, we being very understnadind by not showing our sadness. Sometimes we did make a fuss, but most of the time, we still close one eye, there are times we close both eyes for ur information.

Complain us being too attached to bf, but guys nv know that when real busy time comes, like NS, future working time?, we wun hve the time for those anymore! We willing to put in our effort our relationship, why not you guys put in a bit more effort by helping us oso.

Every relationship is unique, but for most relationship, is like putting up fire using woods. It seems that in many situations, only gals are the one putting in the woods to maintain the fire or best booostt up the fire!!! but guys? Sad to say, they sit down and rest. When we are tired of putting woods to maintain the fire, the guys will begin to get scared and then help to maintain. But the problem is the fire already distinguished already. No more hope already. What has been done is done with already.

Sorry for those who spend time reading this post. I know this sound very sad but it is true. I really dun wan to hear any negative things about couples breaking up and having any bad things happening already. I had enough for these few weeks. Guys are always the main prob from all the problems i have heard. I had enough and I feel tired.

For those couples who haven put a fullstop to the relationship, please, go back to ur gf. They will be always there for you when u need them.

Utada Hikaru - Come Back To Me

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don’t want to be alone
I wish that I could photoshop on
Our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won’t leave me alone

If you come back to me
I’ll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)I’ll be everything you need
(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)Boy you’re one in a million

(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)I’ll be everything you need
(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)You’re one in a million(You’re one in a million)

Memories I have of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this, and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her
Side of the story
It isn’t that bad, it isn’t that bad
And she’s wiser for it now
I admit I cheated (admit I cheated )
Don’t know why I did it (why I did it)
But I do regret it (do regret it)
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)I’ll be everything you need
(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)Boy you’re one in a million
(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)I’ll be everything you need
(Come back)Baby come back to me
(Come back)You’re one in a million(You’re one in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I’m sorry but
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity
Got the better half of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Tell me what you want to be
I open my heart to be
You are more priority
Can’t you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me
Baby take it easy on me
Baby come back to me
Baby come back to me

2009-05-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

I have been feeling very remorseful for some reasons. Some things do not go as smoothly as i wanted them to be, or i could say that I din expect things will become so bad. But with all these problems, I learn how to be independent abit more. I realise I have been super glue. But what to do? Ya, my freedom is to spend time with whom I prefer to spend my time with. But that does not apply to all. Even though i got a 100% for "how well do i know men quiz", but it seems that I still haven really understand totally yet. I have yet to learn until recently and I am starting to learn. Its going to tough in the beginning and I know more "stuns" are going to come out soon. Expect for the better, expect for the worse.

I have been doing my own things, catching up with friends while i got some break off from relationship. Tired to get through life that is dull and boring, so I need to find some cool activities to charge me back to 100% again~~~!!! But just dun have..that is the problem. School is the main factor, projects has been piling up and it is so hard to find a proper research!!! The research all so irrelevent to one another one. No supporting evidence so is like so hard to believe whether it is the correct one or not. lol! Sianz ah...i really hate boring moments..help~~~~

2009-05-20T20:31:00.000+08:00

A sincere apology to Lee Jie Wei:

Really sry for what happen this afternoon. I din mean to scold u fucker, but its just a word I have been recently using and at tt point of the time i couldnt reach him tt y i use the word, but the word "fucker" is actually been replaced by the word "bastard" these few days.. sorry for being to vulgar to u..i noe u think i scolded u but really no..so sorry k? Forgive me can? the most next time in front of u dun use tt word, i use "bastard" ok ok?sorry(=

2009-05-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

Feel veryyyy tired these few days..always want to sleep of cos when nth to do..
Not say i very free, but as a year 3 student, there is no way we can take a break. But compare to year 2, things really get so much better, until i could breathe...But just tt the report is making so bloody irritating, writing report is like part of my life lor...everyday in sch write report...at home also write report...haiz..like writing long long long long essays like tt lor..lifeless~!

Today had a good time with both my electives, when doing the work wasnt feeling too good cos stress ma...but after doing them, i feel more comfortable.cos at least i complete during classes.So at home can no need to rush..can SLOWLYYYYYY do...ahahah! Restarant city and street racing had start to occupy part of my time oso...has been addicted to them just to lvl up them lor...

June holiday coming soon...even though its just 2 wks, but ya, it is still worth the break off from school..from projects perhaps? Cos it will be our LAST HOLIDAY iN POLY!!!! sad rite to hear that, but i really feel its a pretty good time for a slackiing moments for this 2 wks...o ya..anyone got any lobang for the events coming up in suntec and singapore expo event hall? cos i wan work for those event show...if got can tell me?thank(=

2009-05-19T20:55:00.001+08:00

Today lect day means off day for me & so happen tt poot poot oso has no lesson. So i went to his hse. As usual, he slept back after he opened the door for me. Wash my hand and feet and slept beside him oso...wooo~~!!SOOOOO COMFORTABLE...hehe! Some tragedy happen but not as bad as i imagine for the rest of the day.

Lunch time is a time where both of us start cracking our mind where to go. In the end we went to old airport road hawker centre to eat. Aaaabit far but still ok lor....20 min trip to the place and baby eat nasi brani and i eat the popular hokkien mee...nice! But mine has to wait veryyyyyy long....when baby eat finish, then my food come)= We start to talk about childhood matters and i din noe my baby so naughty when he was young!hahah..but luckily now he change already..if not i will faint....

We ate finish and then walk around there to see got anything to buy home eat not lor...I bought fried banana and sweet potato and a egg tart for dear, and a nonya dumpling for his dad. In the end his dad slp all day so the "love-to-eat" dear plan to eat it up at nite..haiz

Back to home and then we do our own proj lor...after tt ended up i sleeping and i dunno i got snore or not lol....and suddenly someone pinch my nose until i cnt breathe then i wake up. Then we watch harper's island...now waiting for the latest epi...nice lehhh!!must watch(=

Anyway today is a very enjoyable day...if everyday will be like today...haiz..FAT HOPE..hahhhaha!!!!

2009-05-18T19:48:00.000+08:00

Today went for photo taking session at tamp market there.
Here is the photo...

Ugly rite? Yeah, i noe...without fail I will appear ugly in this kind of IC photo..
cos hard to pose la..cos only one standard pose...
which is what you seen in my photo...
I wonder who will twist with his/her finger in this kind of photo..
LOL!

Today late for lab for almost 20 min...
but then 10 min later teacher say we can go liao=.=
So in the end we slack slack awhile then go Tampines 1 with ps
Shop in several shops....nth much
but the things there rather ex lor..
So we just see see onli..thought wil be awhile
but in the end we shop for 1hr plus?
then we wait for our bus...tired so both slp in the bus

Anyway today poor middle finger tio cut...
Cut by what?
Cut by colin's paper!!!!!
ok ok..back to my sitevisit report
ciaoz~

2009-05-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today dear fall sick, and yes, he finally fall sick. Cos its like I have been the one falling sick after his wisedom tooth extraction, and I din have the chance to take care of him. So today, I finally got the chance to take care of him. Initially he did not want me to go over, cos he was afriad tt he might spread the germs to me. But I am perfectly healthy so I insisted and I went over. No entertainment though, haha! Bought him herbal tea and vitamin-c ask him eat. Pour warm water for him ask him drink.

Hungry for food after I reach his hse, and in the end I end up cooking packet noodle to eat. Nice lehh..I din noe I can cook until so well for a new kind of maggie mee I had eaten for the first time.hahah! I eat and I wash plates ok!?! So baically i serve myself with food and drink.lol. Looking for egg but no egg)= Eat her mama's walnut cake oso..nice lehh. Maybe is I too hungry so everything nice.hahah!

Talking bout cakes, have to thank steph for the tiramisu and the delivery man who willing to send down the stuff.haha! If those doesnt melt, it can be really nice, cos got the ice-cream and cold feeling. But some melted while on the way to sch already, so we just eat those with shapes still there..haha! And I finally realise the beauty of bedok reservoir. The final year of study in TP, and so sad to say until ytd then i found out tt there is such a beautiful place existing around my sch compound.

Next monday have the bloody AH talk for site visit. sian ah..means must die die attend lecture. I have not been attending lecture since the second term of yr1 unless need to give us test format all these then i go..haha! Anyway these few days damn tired. Tired of doing work, tired of home sometimes, tired of seeing too familiar faces.

O ya, and I realise singapore got more and more crazy ppl. Today when i waiting for my bus 806 in the queue, and cos I am the first one in the queue. Then not long after, the queue is becoming longer. And one crazy auntie came to cut my queue and act blur somemore! She now successfully become the first lady in the queue and I nv say anything cos i see her like tt dun wan bother her so much. Not much of a problem till here until the bus came and its right in front of us. The crazy auntie dun wan to move lehh, she wants to let the bus stop right in front of her then she go or wat, i dunno. But normally ppl see the bus come le, will start to move up ma, Standard de. She still sit there until so shiok. Upon seeing such situation, I just cut across her and i went up the bus first. Anyway I am the first in the queue wat. So i have every right to go up first. Then she follow after me, then she looked into my eyes and start like cursing how young ppl are now. LOL!!! I THEN WANT TO COMPLAIN HOW OLD PPL LIKE HER NOW LORH!!! they think they old so what, we oso got pay bus fare de lehh, not them onli. I let her queue in front of me still no good mehh, who ask her dun wan move forward, sit there dunno see wat. Cannot tahan these kind of ppl man.

Not say I dun respect them, but if they do things to overboard, they really dun deserve our respect, for this case, I already keep quiet nv say anything, and now because of her fault, she scold me back somemore. I feel like saying her back in hokkien so she can understand better :"AUNTIE! LE GAI GI SA LA, MAI GONG BA LANG EH SAI BO!LE DO LO BUAY SHIONG, GONG LA! WOA HOR LE SHIONG SHIONG AH!!!!!" spoil my day chey!

2009-05-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

Relationship consists of many stages. Every stage has its own up and down. The up will be the happiness and laughter. The down will be the sadness and the disagreements. But sad to say, only with the down-part, we will grow up further in our relationship. But if fail, giving up is always the easiest way out. To me, giving up is the last resort, and I think it applies to all sets of couples. Giving up is always the most difficult part of a relationship, and both needs a lot of time to heal, or maybe never heal cos the memories are always on our heart and soul following us everywhere.

The longer the relationship, the more difficult it is to maintain it. Every relationship has its own period of honeymoon period too. Some ends early, some likes forever nv ends. But something for sure is, time and understanding and trust is a major thing to take note in a relationship, which most forget to take note. Honestly speaking, I forgot them sometimes and I need to "refresh" myself in order to get myself back into the track, and I need to remind my other half also or rather he will remind me sometimes.

Mask. Mask is a very important prop in a relationship. Different sets of masks must be put in some special situations. Between couples, there shouldnt be any secrets but mask is still needed to hide our true emotional in order to prevent the other half to be too happy or sad. I learn how to put on two kind of masks: smile & laughing. Sadness is something i wouldnt wan to hide and I dunno how to hide. I have been emo-ing and I like to be in front of one peaceful place. It allows me to think of a lot of things and from there, I have come out with solutions to several problems.

Actually relationship is like food. But what kind of food u wan ur relationship to be like, is a problem. Some relationship is like canned food, taste great before expiry date and after expiry date when the food goes bad, it has to be thrown away. Some relationship is like junk food, can keep for so long but still so nice, but when too much air go in, it cannot be consumed anymore. Other kind of relationship, which is the best, like salted vegetable/egg, the longer u marinate the nicer it is, can keep forever. So which one is mine. I want to be the last one. The simpliest food but it can be keep forever(=

I promise someone to have this mindset in mind until the day I leave this world: Never be the one giving up until really cannot take it. Then relationship will be like salted vegetable/egg with no expiry date.

2009-05-11T19:17:00.000+08:00

I fail my TP. 8 points and 1 immediate failure.
The stupid immediate failure is because my side mirror knock down the weak pole!
SO bloody irritated if not i can get my license already!
i cant stand it man.
And lucky got my suay partner to console and crap with me..haha!
And of cos my day wasnt feeling too great.
I felt I am really stupid and silly.
Am I really not fated to drive?
o damn..i cant imagine..
For now, i wun think of anything bout driving but my ITSB test first.

But this matter has kept me thinking..
does words really so impt to me?
What ppl think bout me and how ppl judge me..
Do i bother?
Ya...I realise it has to see who says those words.
The one I love more,
words out from them
really make me think a lot
and of cos affect me a lot a lot
Maybe I can be a happy-go-lucky person
TO FRIENDS only...
Cos friends' duty is not to console me or anything
but instead they can be beside me if they wan to..
Ppl tt are more impt should be the one tt has the duty to make sure
i am feeling better after what they have said to me.
Instead of standing at a position of a friend,
to talk to me like a friend joking with me.

I am totally affected by what had happened today.
And my mum is kinda pissed by me cos i fail my TP.
well?tmr i guess i will be staying in sch lib to study for my test
rather than going home to see the black long face she will be pulling for days.
SPARE ME ALL THE STRESS!
I JUST WAN TO DO I WAN TO DO!!!!

2009-05-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

If there is really a choice, I would wan to have the same electives with my good firends.
I feel more comfortable with them. And after lessons, we can walk tgt to plan where to eat, and where to mingle after we eaten during our break time. Or maybe sometimes after sch, we can go have some crap talks. But cos they are having different electives with me, so i got a hard time meeting up with them even though sometimes we did.

And ever since I have bf, i did put him into my schedule more often. Whenever I go, whatever I do, seems to have him involve. Not just him, but with his other good buddies too. But I always feel scared, scared tt things wasnt the one i wanted to be. I always taken things into control i realise. Ever since i got into poly, my friends have always been very good. We discussed, we talk, we make fun, we bully ppl, I nv feel uncomfortable with them. I love them as much as I love anything.

Next monday is my driving test. Not being afraid or frighten after days of scary thoughts. Kinda of confidence that things should go smooth. I hope to drive well. I dun wan to just get a license. I wan to aim for a good point. But I scared i cnt. So pls..god please bless me with all the good lucks. Allow me to stay calm and cool. As promise, I will inform my suay partner once I gotten my result. **sigh**

2009-05-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

Friday 9:55PM

Today was quite a packed day, but its really an interesting friday, from the start of the day until the end. Starting today this morning, my first stop is to dear's hse and as planned, i will walk to east coast park to buy our big breakfast for breakfast to his hse(= I spend $14+ on the 2 sets of mac breakfast. I can say its not cheap. But cos I promise to give my dear a treat so i did. I did it out of love, hahah! Watch the Habar's Island at baby's hse. So sorry to wake him up so early but I did feel lucky to reach his hse early, cos once i stepped into his hse, the rain started to pour heavily. What a close shave man~!

As usual eat our breakfast and watch the morning news. Mas Salamat finally got arrested in malaysia..thank god. but he really go skinny a lot. Send baby to school after tat. Head to steph's hse to see her make cupcakes since i am free and she is too. Lots of girls talk, and finaly head to driving centre for my 2nd last revision. I was late! FUcking bus 72! Travel like tour bus ok! SO freaking irritating!

O ya, thank baby for the kiss and hug even though it is not the one i wanted but thank anyway. But dun forget u still ow me lots of them..hehex! And yeah to Steph, thank for ur cupcakes and ur acc to the bus stop...hahah! Thank Ali Ahmat for the waiting cos the bus too slow tt y i am late for ur lesson! But i did reward u back by driving safely...haha! And really thank you for the S 'crank' trick and the getting out of parallel parking short cut..haah!NICE ONE MANN~! I will try to make sure during the test on mon, i will treat the tester as u...hahah!so i wun be nervous in fact joke around..lol! By the way, i cant find ur "baby mama", so i will look for it somewhere when i have time..hahah!

2009-05-05T21:12:00.001+08:00

Tired of school, tired of the swine flu going on in our world.
Everyday go school reminds me of swine...dunno who to blame oso.
The case becomes so bloody serious until once gt sore eyes cnt step into the mrt.
and then tt day can no need go sch already.
I know this cos my friend kanna this morning..bastard u noe!
attendance mark absent for nth~!Lame lehhh this swine flu..make our life damn fucking difficult!
Calls and sms-es asking bout swine flu, open up emails almost all bout swine.
The world to me like now is all bout pigs and birds flu..really
Sick and tired of the "Swine" life.

Anyway happy 11th month annivasary dear muacks!
There wil be always rainbow after thunderstorm
and it applies to relationship(=

Today went for lunch at east coast area.
Cos aaron drove so the 4 of us went tgt
got me, mates, aaron and vera.
Aaron's parking skills really need to brush up more.
turn left or right oso cnt imagine.alamak!
his "P" plate fake one man...
a parallel parking really took us like tons of yrs to be successful.
hahah!anyway can understand la,
cos he is not a everyday driver.
but at least the steps cnt forget ma...haiz
but anyway the we enjoy our katong laksa and our rojak..
thank aaron for the trip anyway(=

2009-05-02T08:15:00.000+08:00

Finally going to recover after hourssssss of sleeppsssss...
I realise i havent sleep for so long time already. Well? Guess this illness did let me bring some happiness in my life cos i have found the enjoyment in sleeping long hours(=

Recently insert a music code into my blog. Had put in my current favourite songs. Kind of emo songs but those are soundtracks of If Only and Once and also The Notebook. These 3 movies damn nice! Romantic movies but damn touching. Cos u can see that i am weeping over the show when i was watching the movie alone haha!

I miss the days I can laugh like crazy..my throat hurts now. So cnt talk with my normal voice and laugh like nobody's business.

2009-05-01T08:37:00.001+08:00

Fall sick le. I din know was that serious. This time round is the most pathetic one. I have headache in the morning when i took bus 969 cos i sit directly under the blasting aircon! Even though I wear my jacket but it seems tt nth much also. Finally reach int and took bus 23. It was pretty ok. But reaching the lab tt time was terrible.My head was like having dozens of big stones flying around within my skull!! DAMN PAINNNNNN~~!! cnt concentrate on work at all. Start to feel feverish and then really fever le. Wanted to acc dear to work, but was chased to go home. In the bus feel like vomiting, and having backache,cos the seat too uncomfortable lor!

Reach home and finally took my temparature.39 degree!!! omg...sleep the whole day and lost my appetite for the day. SIAN!

2009-04-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad.
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me
I wanna be the one

I will rememeber you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories I'm so afraid to love you
But more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness
Deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

2009-04-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really want to know what's wrong with me. I have been resorting to daydreaming without knowing I am doing so, until I was being called/disturbed. But this morning, sitting at the void deck enjoying the strong breeze, I realise what I wanted. I wanted peace and enjoyment. I do not want any stress from anything. I just want fun and laughter. So far, i get those when I went out with WeiWen and Bo tt time only. The other times I got real fuck up with situations until I need to use silence to calm myself down. And this in turn makes me become a quiet person nowadays. Quiet means really quiet. Not saying anything only smile and maybe a small talking.

I think i very long time never become so emo already. The previous time was having to rush one programming based project, real intense one until I cnt take the stress and I started doing things like some crazy women out there in the streets. Now was a different kind of description. Now is also stress, but is like starting to do things like some idiots who never do assignments before. Because once I stop my project, I will think of some negative things that lead me to having negative feelings.

This moring went to baby M. hse to help him iron clothes. Mum not home, nobody does the laundry, so baby M. and me had to do those housework lor. Thank baby for the breakfast(= and I really feel tired. I need a longgggg break!!!

2009-04-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

Tired day in school but finally got assignments to do le. So wun feel boring, but cos in class there is no close friends, so I thought I had depression these few days lor. I cant believe our school management become so sucky when coming to year 3 for ITO. Where got such management whereby seperate ppl then expect to find a group to group tgt for a 10 weeks assignment one, u tell me la! Stupid school lehh! We dun even know anyone there then expect us to find ourselves a group to group for a long term project, stupid mann!

Now because of that, like I am being forced to make new friends and its like playing risky bets lor. Coz we dun even know how they in doing projects ma..sucky management!

But apart from unhappiness, I still manage to know a few good friends(= and thank dear sooo muchhh for the things u bought for me when u overseas. Thank baby...I love you..hehe! Ok ok whatever it is,my brain is stuffed with banking stuff right now. So I got to go back to my work, hope can finish in time. I NEED SOME BREAK!!!