♥ Thursday, November 26, 2009
3:13 PM
Recently realised I have a habit of not talking to people especially to people I dun usually talk to.Sometimes I prefer to shut myself up to prevent things from going worse. But I realise even without doing anything to some people, they just wan to find problems for me. Well? I should say that I prefer life to be simple and with a few good friends whom I can talk to.Doesnt mean having lots and tons of friends, means character is good or even to the extend thinking tt good looks maybe the posibility. But for some reasons, I found out that some ppl just think tt way. Not saying that the above mention is not true, but to me this shouldnt be the way. Well, I dun talk much compare to the time in school. I have lost my smiles and my sense of humour due to stress from everywhere. Nobody can understand how stress I am now. I have to manage not just my own attachment company but with another management. Its just totally different from working another part time job. Its management company. Stress and smiles + humour do not come along tgt. There is only one choice for one. I have chosen stress. My result of choosing stress is having to lose the trust from ppl around me. But tt is not impt to me anymore. Life is not just about having fun like last time. No more time for me to rest and sleep. I have to fastern my pace to get to the next stop. I cant wait for ppl who always stand by me. I just have to run and run and keep running.I am not a perfect person. I am a human being who have flaws. That is why I do not have the ability to make every single one of the ppl I work with, to accept me as a friend or a nice person.
I love the silent around me most of the time. I love to joke and talk with ppl with common topics with me. I will prefer to stay away from ppl whom I dont communicate. And I have done that. But one thing I dun understnad is, ppl whom I do not talk to much, can oso hurt me. To keep cursing and swearing away from this blog, I guess its time to have jokes apart in my life, seriousness is all I have now.
If really buying a packet of food for me is so hard, then rejection is allowed. Some ppl just dun have to think before talking. Spatting out words, which I can do that too. All I just need is one pair of ears and I can backstab. Its so easy. But because I am a very realistic person, if I dun earn anything from those backstabbing session, then I will save those stuffs for myself. If I can get something I yearn for after back stabbing session, I will be the first to not to save those words anymore. I am not ppl who can let ppl bite me, I will not bite you twice, but thrice. Sit back and relax the pain. But to those ppl who dun hurt me, I will not hurt you lol..people who knows me well. You know(=
