Recently realised I have a habit of not talking to people especially to people I dun usually talk to.
Sometimes I prefer to shut myself up to prevent things from going worse. But I realise even without doing anything to some people, they just wan to find problems for me. Well? I should say that I prefer life to be simple and with a few good friends whom I can talk to.

Doesnt mean having lots and tons of friends, means character is good or even to the extend thinking tt good looks maybe the posibility. But for some reasons, I found out that some ppl just think tt way. Not saying that the above mention is not true, but to me this shouldnt be the way. Well, I dun talk much compare to the time in school. I have lost my smiles and my sense of humour due to stress from everywhere. Nobody can understand how stress I am now. I have to manage not just my own attachment company but with another management. Its just totally different from working another part time job. Its management company. Stress and smiles + humour do not come along tgt. There is only one choice for one. I have chosen stress.

My result of choosing stress is having to lose the trust from ppl around me. But tt is not impt to me anymore. Life is not just about having fun like last time. No more time for me to rest and sleep. I have to fastern my pace to get to the next stop. I cant wait for ppl who always stand by me. I just have to run and run and keep running.

I am not a perfect person. I am a human being who have flaws. That is why I do not have the ability to make every single one of the ppl I work with, to accept me as a friend or a nice person.
I love the silent around me most of the time. I love to joke and talk with ppl with common topics with me. I will prefer to stay away from ppl whom I dont communicate. And I have done that. But one thing I dun understnad is, ppl whom I do not talk to much, can oso hurt me. To keep cursing and swearing away from this blog, I guess its time to have jokes apart in my life, seriousness is all I have now.

If really buying a packet of food for me is so hard, then rejection is allowed. Some ppl just dun have to think before talking. Spatting out words, which I can do that too. All I just need is one pair of ears and I can backstab. Its so easy. But because I am a very realistic person, if I dun earn anything from those backstabbing session, then I will save those stuffs for myself. If I can get something I yearn for after back stabbing session, I will be the first to not to save those words anymore. I am not ppl who can let ppl bite me, I will not bite you twice, but thrice. Sit back and relax the pain. But to those ppl who dun hurt me, I will not hurt you lol..people who knows me well. You know(=

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Finally its a very beautiful but yet a moody wednesday for me.
I cant help feeling helpless and just feel like slamming myself to any place that I can sleep.
Wear spects cos eyes uncomfortable. Now see com, my eyes more uncomfortable.
Even spects oso dun wan to wear.

Anyway it will be like another 12 working days to the end of this internship.
I could say there are pro(s) and con(s), but I guess I still prefer my schooling life.
I miss the sports hall.
I miss my school friends.
I miss my juniors.
I miss wearing like shit to school.
I miss the lecturers' faces tho I feel stressful
I miss chionging and get angry over programming which I cant solve the error at all.
I miss my friends.
I miss the gossipping session.
I miss breakfast sessions with my freshies.
I miss after school hours.
I miss waiting for my beloved after school.
I miss taking bus 15 to his hse.
I miss taking bus 39 to meet jamie at her home.
I miss walking to school with her.
I miss miSS MISS~~~~~~

I will still miss my days during the internship for sure.
But what most now the situation is I really miss the life in school more than anything else.
Travelling is easier for me, and all.
I want to head back to school.

Tho major proj can be hard and stressful, but I guess this is student's life.
Nth has no stress.
So I will be counting down..Slowly one day by one day.

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Back from Malaysia(=
Much of a kind of learning experience than fun for me.

The trip by transtar coach bus was fantastic. 4hrs trip in total.
And we reach our Sunway Resort 1hr in advance. So we got to rest and chill for awhile
before we proceed to have a conference. My room mate, Brina.
Tho she always love to bring scariness in the hotel room, but in the end its always laughter.
Haha! After conference we are actually brought to Zen Japanese Restaurant to have our dinner, but lunch at the hotel made me so full until I really couldnt eat more. So we ordered soju. Drank a few cups but feel alrite.

KTV session! Sing and all and drink and all and I finally land myself in a state whereby I cant walk anymore. But fortunately, I was sound and safe back to my hotel in some ways. No hangovers despite tt much of drinking. That actually brings me to the second day where we have our team building challenge! This is the one that I am looking forward for, for this trip. SO FUN!!!! Tho we did not win any prizes, but what is more impt is the games we played tgt as a group and also taking care of one 50 plus colleague. She couldnt walk tt fast so along the way, she has been taken care of. We played a lot of games. All are very excited games. People who are afriad of height for sure will have obstacles to playing those games. But luckily those were fun! :D
Decide to upgrade our ticket to RCS version so we can play everything from the theme park. Then we head to flying fox and AVT and many more.. To my surprise we had physical and heart exercise from 1030am to 6pm which is their opening time to the closing time. I played until my body all aching. Cos most of the activities we played need to climb high level of stairs.

Did not manage to get any photo cos they are not with me yet. But everything was just so fun. Went back to hotel for a bathe before we went down for dinner at Pyramid mall T.R.I.F. They serve big serving food. And omg. Was terrible mann. We actually finish most of them tho we kept pushing around. After a sumptous dinner, we decide to look for shops where we can beautify our nails. But was close to 930pm already (the closing time of the shopping mall), so we decide to book apptmt for the next morning before we left for Singapore. Manage to do up our nails the next morning after our hearty breakfast and then we catch up with our coach and we bought A&W for our lunch!!! So cool! Singapore had this brand swipe out. So have to taste it oversea.

Went back home by cab and was super tired at night. Was fun and here we go, MONDAY!!! Working time(=

P,S: photos will be uploaded soon once I got it.

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Me?Adeline!Tp IT student..
& yupz 25/7/90 is my first cry(=
Love SweetHeart Cries U&miie

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