Not feeling well. Partly because my shoulder is aching, my leg is pain..but I did promise myself tt I must attend the NAFA this friday. Run finish and get over and done with. Then will be my SIP which I will be dealing with it alone soon. Tragic to hear I am alone this time. But happy to say that my birthday is coming~~~!!!

Some of the birthday wishes I have gotten:
1. The special baby who has been with me ups and downs for 13 months(=
2. I got a branded bag and pouch and a watch
3. My hair grew longer~~!!
4. I will get a set of bikini from my cousin soon for my birthday.
5. Singtel give me birthday treats to gelare (15% off all cakes)
6. Got some freedom from my mum.

Some wishes that I haven grant yet:
1. I want adidas jacket.
2. I want burberry perfume.
3. I want a black tube dress. (sth like the one Steph showed me)
4. eh..i dunno liao..up till now ba(=

I will be working on birthday eve. So hopeless..but since my work place is near clark quey, if the company good enough can bring me to those area jalan after work..ahahhah!ok la..still hard to say la...hahah! anyway those are my fat hopes..anyway i going for signing of contract in my attachment company. lol..then we will know what exactly we will do. Then all these all that. Final year...well? very fast going graduate le...haiz..miss my poly life already. start to miss already.lol!
ok i going to turn in soon already. nitez guys!

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Theory of A deadman - not meant to be

Its never enough to say I'm sorry
Its never enough to say I care
But i'm caught btw what you wanted from me
And knowing that if i give that to you
i might just disappear

nobody wins when everyone's losing

it's like one step forward and two steps back
no matter what i do you are always mad
and i, i cant change you mind
i know its like trying to turn away one way street
i cant give you what you want
and its killing me
and i, i starting to see
maybe we are not meant to be

there is still time to turn this around
you could building this up instead of tearing it down
but i keep thinking
maybe its too late

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Went to watch Transformer today..I can say its nice and humerous and very action pack..nice!
Go watch but its a 2 hr plus movie...so ya..at the last part can be a little touching..hah! But not to the extend to cry la.

Anyway today is definitely not the today i want. But anyway its going to be over soon. And a brand new day ahead for tmr. And stuff. Hope things around me will get better. And I really want to be the old me. Can i?

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SIP allocation is at Shell eastern Petrolumn Pte Ltd. Well? I suppose its a good one. At least the location itself is at town area..so i no need to like travel to some run-down place mann..

tmr ITSB presentation..hope to get over and done with soon...

Thurs go watch transformer with dear!!!!!

6 July to 4 dec is my SIP period...so people..i can onli meet u guys for dinner or sat or sun.....time restriction...supre tight schedule now..sianz!

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Went to town today with my mum since no sch today.
Have plans to buy a new bag and a new undergarment..muahahha!
In the end I did buy after searching high and low for them.
Its hard to look for a suitable ones. But lucky all are found in the Takashimaya
But EXPENSIVE~~~!!!!!
I bought a Fion Bag for $388 and the undergarment for $69.90...
Ex rite?Ya i know so that is y i have promise myself to carry tt bag for damn long..
and i dun wan to keep changing bag just like my watch...
not going to change here and there.
Cos expensive stuff does worth in this manner.
They can last longer in good condition(=

After shopping in town, decide to go suntec alone while my mum head home first.
Wanted to shop alone there but too tired when i reach there.
So decide to take a bus home from there straight..
Reach home feel so sleepy but I am glad I have bought things that i wanted to buy.
And fortunatly those are wat I want...
so a happy but tired day actually
Yawnsss~~~~

O ya!!!!TMR ITSB TEST~!
**and i haven study properly yet**
only read thru mann..sure gg already la...
but watever it is...
I am really in a holiday mood...

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From the time where 11:11 am starts to strike in my eyes, I decide to put things into my heart and soul. From the point I learn to pick things up, I must learn how to put things down. But I realise I have been picking things up. So as my life goes on and on, more and more things dragging on my feet. No more space on my feet, so i put on my back. Carrying doubts and sadness around with me, putting on masks thinking tt I may have put things down, but all those are some wishy thinkings of mine.

Sometimes I think I am tired. Sometimes I think I am just too lazy to carry on. Sometimes in a midst of thinking, I think I have found my solutions, but after those thinkings, I found out that they are all somethings I used to make myself happy a little while only. Wants more desire more but still never achieve anything that I want. But I know something: Those are not the one I want.

Life is hard but yet we still have to carry on. This is our fate. Have to learn how to have more strength to carry more things on my feet and back. Cos I know deep in my heart that there will be definitely more coming. Its always the starting point when we realise things had gone bad.

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had my life predicted today.

conclusion is:
1. I will have 2 of my colleagues in my attachment company giving me politics problems. Solution is to be patient lor..haha!
2. I will find my husband in the second relationship..(=
3. Not suitable to have my own company
4. Study in SIM cos if i go NTU, i will be a drop out student, cos i dun hv any enthu in studying anymore.
5. The course i should persuade is business..
6. Highest rank in my working life will be a chief/supervisor in a department at the age of 32 at most.
7. I will get married in the age of 28.
8. My partner wil think anytime will be the best time.
9. Will encounter a lot of problems (problems like my family or money or wat) before marriage.
10. Will retire at the age of 50.
11. After 2-3 yrs of flying around the world to enjoy life, i will still be back to do part time job
12. No need to worry bout my children, cos they are independent.
13. I will have a car will be a sedan or at most a volkwagen which my financial can bring me to.
14. My last lap of life will end at age 82.
15. Will have a lot of competitions from my work life, so must be patient and prevent conflicts.
16. Husband and me turns out to be a very good pairing one even though can be logger head but still very suitable. ( and i know which horoscope(=)
17. No third party in our relationship, so learn to let go a bit.no need worry
18. Health not a prob

ok..all for the day..and this is wat i got...thank larry. cos of u i got a lot of knowledges from my future and glad to be ur secretary cos those qn the fellow ask is so common sense qn.hahah! so tt y i manage to ans those qn..not cause i am smart..anyway i use ur judgement to judge another person's one.. tt y..hahha!

tmr going to BK for breakfast with dear!haah..love him!Muacks!

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Start work today. Wake up as early as 5.50am to get things ready.
Cos first day have to meet especially early to get ourselves prepared plus temparature taking.
Meeting point is a confused and so me and baby walk with so much doubts thinking where is the meeting point exactly.
Met a guy named Raymond, and i know he is oso data entry as me in the same hall, so ask him where to meet and stuff. I wanted to work with baby at hall3 but too late. We should have mentioned to pheobe bout tt during sat not today. So too bad, we have to go seperate ways but I am contented tt I made a lot of new friends. I am the youngest still...lol.

Lunch is tempura not bad lor. Then have a ah ma just scold her way into our area to say want to make IC then produce IC photo. lol! she come to the wrong place man..but our supervisor's supervisor talk to her so like yaya like tt. then in the end both of them got conflict, so ask the security outside to chase her out. She stubborn dun wan to go out. So i talk to her in hokkien since she speaks hokkien one. Manage to get her out of anymore trouble. Then i head back to my workplace(=

Tired whole day long and went home after tt. But walk to hall 3 to wait for baby. All the buses today are damn longgggg on the waiting hour. I was like so damn hungry and tired. But when i reach home, i really want my bus trip to be longer. Cos my mum start nagging once i step home. SO FREAKING IRRITATIN~!!she complain so many things,'skirt too short', 'nobody ask me work so far', 'wear too high heel shoe', 'work just to play with friends'..bla bla bla...NONSENSE~!ALL BULLSHIT! Want to give her a slap to wake her up.but i really no energy to do anything, so just keep quiet and hope to put her into silence immediately!

Now blogging, fee much better after saying all my sadness and everything. But indeed this job has created more trouble than anything. Firstly, it creates some rough edges btw me and baby, and now me and my mum's naggyness, which really really gave me a lot a lot of inconvenience and headache. All I want is peace and those who really in need of money. I din cause any forcing and of cos i din cause any inconvenient. And i dunno y my mum just purposely wan to find trouble for me. I take it as if she dunno how irritated I am from the start, just tt I know I have no situation to get angry and flare over this kind of 'non-relationship' matters.

Whatever it is, i hope this event end fast and school term start fast. So i can go back to my normal life and complete my yr 3 and continue my life ahead.

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went for training for CommunicAsia thing..as usual cos involved many people so waited for damn long....and someone just cant stop pulling his long face. Making me so hard to make things better. Sometimes really think that if I din make the choice to look for someone to work with me, things will be much better. But anyway, this is the first time and last time. I learn my mistake not to ask him to tag along anymore, only make things worse for both of us. Can feel pretty irritated, cos nobody likes to go out with someone pulling a long face. You know how hard can it be? yes..its extremely hard. But cos this time round is i ask him to join with me, so i might as well just endure till the end of this event and no more for such things tgt anymore.

But after that, even though pulling long face, we still went to suntec to walk....we went to superlicious to have our dinner. and then to PC show to get antivirus...wanted to find a quiet place to settle down, but its town area and its raining outside so we made our way home respectively. Just in time for my 930pm korean show(=

And that is how i start my day and end my day..

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Finally back to home. Last night too tired to blog or even use the com so din blog. Reach home around 8pm. Manage to clear my clothes by 9pm and settle down for TV.

Wed morning was a boring one. Cos my dad secretary came to our hse to explain what the contracts are all about before signing so I must be there to listen too. After that, the secretary fetched me to my driving centre to register my dirving license. Have a real LONGGGGG waiting hours. I waited for nearly 2 hrs. In the end, I was done only at 1.40pm..then took bus 13 to dear's hse. He cook maggie mee for our lunch.

Reach his hse around 2 plus 3 then rest awhile, slack awhile bla bla...then we had our lunch.
After which my mum called to ask me buy 4D for her, so have to go to 4D outlet to buy before 6pm. We headed to parkway for it first then went to G2000 to buy black formal shirt and a tie.

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Pass my driving..but something very surprised is tt I am not tt happy and excited as i expect myself to be. I think I am looking for something but I am too blind to see that something. Maybe a car? I dunno...might not be also. Cos got car no car, I wun drive tt often either. Tmr I will go apply my license at the driving centre.

Anyway today went for briefing but wasnt as long as the waiting time. Lucky got mydarling with me. If not I will feel damn lonely. Even though we dun talk much, but at least there is company ma. But dear working in hall 3 while i work in hall 6. So i calling the person in charge to put us tgt..hehe! If not will defeat the purpose of asking him to join me to work already wat.

Driving from 725 to around 9 plus...tired...and today walk to bugis and all more tired..will rest early today.

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Today went to bugis with pris to pray. Then meet the siao char bor and her friend at cityhall lor. Then we are in a grp of 4s..Settle our lunch at Just Noodle. And with our lunch, weisi and her frend manage to enjoy a free flow ice cream. Then we meet ks and adam..talk about jason..so funny..at explanade we crap a lot as a grp of 4. So damn rubbish man..we talk so much stupid things...like mediaCORK!!!!hahhahahaa....and the WOW thing..hahah!!

All nonsense anyway but was so fun(=
Thank for the day guys...

Schedule for the 2 weeks holiday:
Mon: Jalan with cousins
Tue: Driving test; ToaPayoh for meeting up session; dating
Wed: Dental; dinner at The Lagoon; Supper at geylang; Overnight
Thurs: Home sweet home on the evening; dinner at home; sleep
Fri: Study for ITSB test; Rest at home
Sat: Training for CommunicAsia
Sun: Cousin's house
Mon: (Maybe going out with sister and cousins)
Tue: Day 1 at CommunicAsia
Wed: Day 2 at CommunicAsia
Thurs: Day 3 at CommunicAsia
Fri: Last day at CommunicAsia
Sat: Rest at home; Study for ITSB test
Sun: Get ready for ITSB test

So basically my schedule is confirmed with the above listing...can see that these 2 weeks have been quite pack with things...So I really wish my life can get on smoother with the help of Goddess to let me pass my driving pls!!!I dun wan to fail again....if not i wun not have time to go to and fro to the driving centre anyway. PLEASE!

Ok now, i got to stop my blog posting for now...and then relax a bit first..hahha!

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Went out in the afternoon to do some errands basically. But i suppose the weather is too hot for a human being to walk happily under the sun. I just feel that I am burning the moment my skin get in contact with the sun man. Once i stepped out of the bus, I took the shortest route to get my contact lens, then walk so fast into the shopping mall where aircon surrounds me(=

Change my dental apptmt and get it done in 20 min...wed 12pm..should be ok ba..actually i hate dental but wat to do?Need to wash my teeth wat..so have to go lor. Went to lib to return my books. Then quickly head home for my korean show. At least I feel much cooler at home. Yawnss~~tmr going bugis to walk around. Going to the new shopping mall to take a look again whether almost done already not..hahah!

Haiz..later got driving revision..and its the last driving revision before my test...this time round I not going to care so much already. Just drive lor. I dun wan to drive with tons of energy wasted there. If not next time I drive everyday, then I wun love to drive anyway, so just keep it cool, get over and done with lor~ I realise my weakest area is not the S crank, but is the parking moving out. Cos i cant see the blind spots at the back..tt y i tend to go all the way to the back and or if not will knock the pole in front. haiz...sad ah

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Interesting day today. Not really planned before hand, but still turns out well. In the morning recieve my auntie's sms and then head to her sister's hse to see baby zane. He cannot recognise me anyway. Went to opp sch market to eat with them. And thank to Auntie cos she treat me for my lunch.

Meet peifen for movie: Night at Museum 2. Not very nice but some parts really hilarious. After movie, we went to meet up with my auntie and er yi, and her husband at tampines 1 for chengdo..hahah! Ya, and my auntie treat again. Treat peifen oso....and this girl keep denying but in the end still being treated..haha!Order Hokkien mee oso..nice but ex lor.

Walk around the place and then head to yio chu kang for driving. Thank peifen for the acc(= And thank auntie for the treats today(='

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Today I can say that I am declaring myself a freedom asshole out in the streets again. Why? Cos I have summited ITSB 129 pages report this morning! HCIF ytd already presented. So means that elective has put to an end already. Left with ITSB test on tue morning and thurs morning formal presentation after the 2 weeks holiday and I am done with term 1!YESSSs......

Then we will start to have our pre-SIP training before we start MP or SIP first. Depends which we are selected to go for first. Consider myself a freeman, I will start my holiday from today onwards hahah....quite cool(=

Tmr I dunno what plan I will have..but just see first lor..if not I guess I will be alone till 4 plus then I have lesson. Anyway I pray hard that dear quickly get away from the serious headache he had...cos with that, I really dunno how to talk to him properly. Haiz..poor thing.

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Tmr summiting ITSB project le. I should say its cool and happy to be busy lol! At least I feel like I am having stress from work now. Talking bout ITSB, we have done 100 over pages and tt as a whole is good! Cos i totally din expect it at all. That time see my senior's report, their one 60 over pages but like a lot. Then i admire. Now I admire my own report. All thanks to all my grp mates for efforts and hardwork(= I enjoy working with u guys mann....haha!

During the holiday, I seriously going to have a hard time again. Why? Cos nth to do!Working in communicAsia will be best but have to wait for confirmation lor. Even then tt will be from the 16-19 june. So first week of holiday still considered free ba. Mon I can rest for one day. Tue I got driving. Wed dental then thurs fri free....then the following week, mon free, tue to fri might work, then 2 weekends as usual then start sch for ITSB test and presentation again-.-

So basically my 2 weeks are rather occupied la. But still got breathing space for me to do some nonsense work which i nv done during school days(= Ok ok..back to my proj now le.Ciaoz

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Jogging again. This time round better stamina: 2.4km non stop then one more round. Total distance run today is 3km. But still slow.. but girls nvm la, got run can already. Did some sit-ups and have a game of table tennis with colin and cy. Then we went to have lunch while waiting for ks and yewf to meet us.

Went to lib to relax but think we too noisy lol. Went to look for dear, in the end i joke too much till too overboard. Some minor disputes but somehow solve. My fault my bad. really sorry(=

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I am looking for people who needs accompany like me.
I am looking for people who feel lost like me.
I am looking for people who is as free as me.
WHO??

All my friends all so busy with their assignments, and yet I am so free that I have nth to do. I can hardly find anything to do leh seriously, that y everyday wake up is like a tragic to me. I miss my dear very much but he is too busy for me at this point of the time. I can do nth but to let him do his work. As for my own friends, they are busy too. And in the end i can only find firneds that are not from my school. I feel so sick and sianz. I want to work I want to have project.

I dun wan to slack so much man. I feel so sick and sian...There is a lot more things for me to do. But Singapore too small and thus I cant go anywhere lor. Go here go there oso same.

I have been thinking what will happen to me if my life in future is not like today. What will I do in future if I am not what I am now. I love to work to keep myself occupied with experienced with money with colleagues. I hate to spend my time with freedom, boredom and naggy-ness. I really want my life to be the one I like it to be. I hope to start SIP soon. I want to be like year 2 but not so tt busy. But perhaps I got used to the busy lifestyle already. That is y i need to keep myself busy and not free like this. I am bored!

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Me?Adeline!Tp IT student..
& yupz 25/7/90 is my first cry(=
Love SweetHeart Cries U&miie

Nth much lorh..for me to know for u to find out!