♥ Friday, April 24, 2009
8:09 PM
Sometimes I really want to know what's wrong with me. I have been resorting to daydreaming without knowing I am doing so, until I was being called/disturbed. But this morning, sitting at the void deck enjoying the strong breeze, I realise what I wanted. I wanted peace and enjoyment. I do not want any stress from anything. I just want fun and laughter. So far, i get those when I went out with WeiWen and Bo tt time only. The other times I got real fuck up with situations until I need to use silence to calm myself down. And this in turn makes me become a quiet person nowadays. Quiet means really quiet. Not saying anything only smile and maybe a small talking.
I think i very long time never become so emo already. The previous time was having to rush one programming based project, real intense one until I cnt take the stress and I started doing things like some crazy women out there in the streets. Now was a different kind of description. Now is also stress, but is like starting to do things like some idiots who never do assignments before. Because once I stop my project, I will think of some negative things that lead me to having negative feelings.
This moring went to baby M. hse to help him iron clothes. Mum not home, nobody does the laundry, so baby M. and me had to do those housework lor. Thank baby for the breakfast(= and I really feel tired. I need a longgggg break!!!
