Love makes someone BLIND
Love makes someone STUPID
Love makes things COMPLCATED

[ I prefer "single bed" for now]

Loving is difficult,loving hurts when fail, loving is a guessing game,require high IQ,
Loving someone can be easy and can be hard,Loving someone is equal to high EQ..
Loving someone is to understand him/her more than other ppl do...
Loving someone is like doing Math,need formula to figure out what he/she is thinking
Loving someone is never a nice experience..
Loving someone is like a mist..
Loving someone is like physcology lesson..
Loving someone indeed prove that skills are needed..
******is difficult******

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[movie trip at tampines mall(gv)]

LOLZ..me with the famous cookie monster!!!so big!!! first time see such a big cookie monster..haha..so i nv fail to miss this chance to take photo wid it..hahahz..then after that we went to mac and those hu wan to buy their food they buy la...and onli me and rafi din buy..and after tat rafi take bus 39 wid me as his hse at pasir ris ma..so same bus lorh..the suay guy..hahah!!!!!

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Yesterday in class ,seeing wat has happened to ben,i feel kinda of saddening,triana told me to make him a "cheer up" card..hope he can cheer up and learn how to smile more...morale of the story for him: Dun be late after the 15min grace hour. ur GPA so high yet becos of the bloody cmsk which is like a non-graded pass?,i mean is kind of unfair la..but this is entirely ur fault oso la..from wat i see and noe,i already help u le,but cher still dun wan to change her mind,i actually dun wan u to noe i actually tried to talk rounds wid cher,but everything jus go so predictable tat she jus wun change the attendance thingy..late a bit is actually okie la..who ask u alwasy late for lesson?Serve u rite calling once!lolz..k la dun scold u anymore,cos i noe it can be quite kindda of giving u hard feelings..

at this moment,wat i can do is to help u summit ur loa from and help u wid all i can since u are helping out in the linux dae..learn to smile more and u will be okie..must learn from me,after crying,must learn to forgive and forget and smile and laugh and joke wid the person,jus like ben lee,u noe wat happen during tat day,and now u can see wat happen to us,so learn from me!(: No copyright fees needed,dun worry..lolz

To Audrey toh:
Hating Audrey toh is always wat i am doing,she is jus so such a bloody irritating freaking asshole cmsk teacher,sad to say her teaching suckz so much that i dun bother to listen to it even for that fucking one second,she is such a nuisance to that i wish i can give a a damn big idiotic tight slap on her wrinkled face...O!wat a lazy teacher i have seen,and suay suay u are the bloody idiot asshole that teach us cmsk..?Audrey toh:message for you:U jolly well fucked up and go be ur watever bloody hell political thingy and live well wid that stupid job of urs and dun ever come back to TP and continue to harm other studients anymore..Remember this You Bitch!!!

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lolz..yesterday we went to bedok wid cy and tobi..to buy clothes..i mean apply to cy onli..me and jamie din buy la..we jus acc them..lolz,on the way,we saw guo bin!!!lolz..hahaz...

Apart from this,today i feel kinda irritated by one issue..is betta to be late than nth..i tink our cmsk cher dunno wat is the meaning of this proverb..of cos,i feel that is nth at first..but slowly i feel kinda sad and pityful for..lolz. Am i being to softhearted?neh.this is not softhearted or wat la...but is i willing to help ..solve myself,by pleasing cher to close one more eye this time round oso...even though i noe she has done tat many times already,but since the entire thing is ending soon,i mean jus left 2 more lessons,jus mark..present lorh..he oso got attend lesson but is jus tat over the 15min grace period nia ma..i really hope cher can reply my sms and give him one more chance mann...and berlinda,dun tell..i actually helping..thanx(=

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[Hands Together II at kovan on saturdae=)]

Nich soon wearing black "****...* yesterday is singing so loud while we R slacking at the private estate block 147...hehe


After the 2 hours of collecting cans from more tan 14 blocks..we R tired..and so we crave for cold drinks..ah soon get us 3 root beer and we share and drink..after that we take a nap on the table..lolz...after that,we palyed murdurer!! We played 2 times while waiting for that bloody slow van to fetch us back..lolz!Heng arh.i am the police for the two times..first time punishment was nich and the second time was the Ayumi hater..Amanda Lee Li Hui!!!lolz..


In the morning,me and jamie.lolz..we ate this stupid burger..why izzit stupid?!(cnt tell u...cos this is suppose to be our secret!!=)


Of cos,initially the van came and fetch us..and we got back to the meeting point at kovan and have our lunch..not bad!!first time i nearly w=ate te whole packet!!hahaz...Andy give me a bottle of sliming pillss..i wanted..but kind of dangerous if i consumed it..so i din take it..lolz..the slimmi pill is actually given by one f the residents to the needy.lolz..RUBBISH mann..give them this kind for wat!!lolz..
After those packing and checking of those cans..we finally completed our mission at around 5.40 plus..is fun but very tired...lolz..we take a lot of grp photos and we have a lot of fun..everything ended at 6.30pm and we headed back home to rest...HOme Sweet hOmE!!!=)

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Yang Cong--played in my blog media

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的
我笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

Chorus:
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现
你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸
你会流泪
只要你能听到我看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与
你有一秒专属的剧情

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[feelings today=)...Happy]
I feel extraordinary today..partly becos my o lvl performance which is far from my expectation and oso becos of sth else...initiative..u have learnt how to archieve it!!! Even though those words are not much and maybe those words really doesnt meant any thing for you, but those "maybe meaningless" words or i can say is messages u have type to me is so meaningful to me..every words really meant a great significant to me..maybe u din realise it..ur every action have made me realise how i can judge u by ur inner self or outer self..

I noe the fact that wat u have said is not true..i dunno y u wan to do tat..if i tink negatively,it will be very upsetting for me cos it will mean tat :"pls..dun bother me anymore"..but if positively, it will mean:"i am jealous u got a rumour bf and i tink is true and i wa to make u assume that i too have my own rights of having a gf and Lastly,i dun mind or even care about you from the start..so why should i bother to care whether u have a bf?"

The more you do the more obvious it is...so dun do too much action..it will make u show tat u care more or even to show tat u find me a bother?which i din...really,i feel tat..to other ppl they dun tink i bother u oso..so i really find no reason...ur action is really difficult to guess wat u are going to do next...

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LOLZ..the world had changed..i really dunno y..wat i mean is like,we use to be close..but now no..tat's the prob..between us there is no some kind if friendship,is only left wid crisp of advatges for each other only..we are using each other as some kind of help for each other only..nth else..i treat u more than i can,but it seems that u treat me less than wat u are suppose to be..my sixth sense,dunno y..should i trust my sixth sense or not??

Apart from those stuff, sth harppie to talk about!!Today i got back my O lvl eng result!!I got a B3!!!Yeah!! surprising rite?haha..i too shocked...lolz..i cant believe it mann..i got a B3!!!LOLZ...so i happily play badminton wid coliin and cy here all..lolz..erm,quite random the topic..lolz..

ya..talking bout badminton our careperson,mr lawrence played wid us!!!haha...lolz..interesting game wid him..lolz...is nice to have teacher playigng wid us mann..Lawrence goh is quite an easy going person oso la..i thought for a long time..lolz..yeah...maybe we can play more games int eh future together like wat we do today wid cy there all?Its a good idea...dun u tink so?!=)

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lolz..interesting day today..laughing like mad even though no one is laughing wid me..haha.i jus laugh for no reason!!!crap!!!make me malu..haha..[The American Style]..haha..LOLZ

Of cos i noe u are looking but i dun care..jus laugh as i want!!!But not everytime i am happy for that day,i feel iritated..pure irritated!!! I din wan to see u..mess wid u..or even tok to u..really..u make me pissed off in my life..u HOLY BASTARD!!! I think u dunno u R the one for today's post i am mentioning..dun bother to guess is who..watever it is..i will not reveal anything but u R he one..no doubt...

In my life, I love damn bastard idiot and I hate Holy bastard...

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After the summiton of cmsk is a very relief one..u noe tat kind of feelings?! wow,is like:'cool mann,finally one less burden"lolz!!!but here come the stupid oopg lab test make me spin my head like madd mann..Java i am really sux mann..nth to say

Going to Australia for my new year season, not going to celebrate cny in singapore..but actually i dun really wan to go oversea at this point of the time..i wan to stay in sinagpore and celebrate wid my family and friends..let them come to my hse and take ang bao and i can also do tat mann..it's going to be fun mann!!! but this year wun be fun la..cos i am going to fly on 5th feb 6.30pm..so i'm going to skip the last two lesson on tue and off i go!!yeah!!!haha..austarlia sydney!!I am going to just look forward even though i really wan to stay in singapore to celebrate CNY..i mean is equally fun la..This trip to sydney is like one person going to $3000++ mann..wa!!! broke!!!lolz..i am going to have a fun time even though i dun wish to..

Hey u noe wat?![[[[ I LURBB INDIAN ]]]]]]] LOLZ

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just before poly life started, i have met a group of friends thourgh yakult..is wei xiong and edwin and alex tan they all..tat is the first group of sec 5 guyz i have made for friends..so everytime recess we yakult will either go piano at the sch art gallery or will go to the basketball court to see them play basketball..tat time was my sweetest and most beautifu moment i like out of all moments in my life until today.

I get to know this quiet guy sitting in one area..always nv fail to nv tok to only his guys friend..haha..one day,i dunno how we begun to tok..but for some reason we chatted on sms a lot one midnite..and the following nite..we oso chatted throughout the nite..from nite 11pm to next morning 3-4am..and i ave to wake up at 6am for sch next day!!one nite we sms,he told me say he like me,i felt very happy..really very happy,cos i like him at that time oso..and he confessed to me but provided must not tell the others bout tat..childish rite?haha..after tat, we went to watch movie and from tat day onwards,i love the mrt station called Somerset..he acc me home tat nite after our movie with our 2 other couple frineds..we watch horror movie..we sit beside each other..he talk to me and we have a lot of great moments on the way home..

suddenly talk bout this is because yesterday i chatted wid him online and once again he is very kind to me..but is jus so hard to get those feelings back just like before..however close or how much we tok..all has already become a past..a past tat cnt be retrieved..including the innocent and wonderful feelings we had before..wat left for both of us is jus the memories behind created by us..but i will always remember the mooment we have starting from the mrt station named Somerset...thanx edwin for giving me ur truthful feeling once even though is all history..thx((:

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LOlz..sad to say these days i din enjoy much of the food days..i am sick and is rather "not much afected outside" sickness..but in my system, my digestive system has serously break down..feverish and dun feel like eating..eating wid kSer and colin they all,is really my first time eating only half a bowl of porridge when i din eat anything in the morning..and in the nite,becos my ma tell me must eat a little,so i eat only the abit of vegetable and tofu,rice i eat two small spoonful only,cos i scare i vomit out so i din eat much..

Attedning the NE talk is of cos i boring one la..no talk in this world is interesting,i mean will interest me..haha..but on the way to the Conventional centre is a very fun one..this is my first time taking a bus from IT sch to Engine sch haha...but within TP!hahahz..lolz,jus because me and ben lee and nich soon dun wan to walk so far so we make an effort to walk to the bus stop to talk one stop to engine sch..LOLZ..so funni!!!luckily i have bus consession,ben oso have but not ah soon..but he say:"is okie la..this kind of money must spend one..haha!!!"WOW..nich soon is rich mann..hahahz

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WOW-- I believe in Love

这样够了
最后一次试着
在这没有你的地方
学着你说的爱
为了让你快乐
我选择寂寞
也要很坚强的爱着

Coz I believe in love
手紧握却心好痛
Coz I believe in love
我以为幸福会陪我到最后
我不是不懂爱的脆弱
这一刻却放不开手
就这样执着刻骨铭心地爱错

这样够了
最后一次试着
在这没有你的地方
学着你说的爱
为了让你快乐
我选择寂寞
也要很坚强的爱着
Chorus:
Coz I believe in love
手紧握却心好痛
Coz I believe in love
我以为幸福会陪我到最后
我不是不懂爱的脆弱
这一刻却放不开手
就这样执着刻骨铭心地爱错

Love可能会让我变得更勇敢
我想要的明天
不再和你有关
ohh~
Coz I believe in love
手紧握却心好痛
Coz I believe in love
我以为幸福会陪我到最后
我不是不懂爱的脆弱
这一刻却放不开手
就这样执着刻骨铭心地爱错
Coz I believe in love
手紧握却心好痛
Coz I believe in love
我以为幸福会陪我到最后
我不是不懂爱的脆弱
这一刻却放不开手
就傻傻执着
没放弃过
希望有天 你懂

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sian sianz sianzz...proj summtion damn lots this week..walau!!! i really dunno when i can take a long break mann..sianz lorh..my god!!! i really cant take it lehh..sianz lorh..just because the sch honeymoon period is over then does tat means that there is no way to relax anymore??! HOLY BASTARD!! i am really damn ****ing sick and tired of those proj mann..but i really wish to look ahead OLTC..**excited**LOLZ

Knowing the truth i noe is not the truth,i truly understand the meaning behind it..i will not touch this matter anymore..really..i promise i vowed with my heart and soul..

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on the way home, me and lulu chatting on sms..talking how to tackle wid my prob wid that damn bastard idiot!!!ya..of cos the only solution is to look for a time and talk to that bastard personally and tell him how i feel and maybe or perhaps he may have a change of idea and come to me instead?? But of cos,i dun have that kind of courage to do so la..to do tat really require tons and tons of courage even if just by telling the damn bastard idiot how i feel..u noe??

haiz..of cos, i noe tat maybe everything is impossible but just like ywef had said..the damn bastard idiot really cant find any good reason to say no..by the way he acted towards me and the way ppl see us..there is no excuse to say "is not true" or wat so ever..

Apart from my personal prob..i still have to spend some time for my hoop proj...yupz..staring another proj soon..sianz

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ya..indeed have been greatly affected..dunno wat to do..just dunno wat to do. After talking wid apple,i feel much betta as she give me proper excuse to say when i see the bastard..of cos,it will be a very difficult task for me to just act as if nth happen, but i will very jolly well noe that i must do dat to ensure everything goes smoothly as usual lke before..just like before...

Quite hurting to noe the truth out of the everything..honesty is good in relationship..but do u none tat honesty is the best and most hurtful weapon to stab into the person's heart directly?...i tink most people dunno..tat y a lot of ppl choose to be honest wid their partner...is good and bad..i cant put down and so i must be brave enough to learn how to put things down...

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Enjoying the every moments in the open hse..
Make a lot of new friends...
Understanding more about the perception of "good" life...
last but not least,
More bastard in this world...

Why do guys have to exist?!y cant it be just the world of gals??
Do u guyz noe that ur are a extreme complete idiot and a pure 100% bastard?!
Do u guys noe tat how many numerous galz ur have hurt?
Worse...w/o noeing it..

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me and bao lin..randomly take[very ugly]

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i couldn't get to sleep..despite very tired during the open hse..of all the shouting all that..i enjoy every single moment we got together as one to sing those cheers..TP OI!!yeah!!really love myself at that moment..i lead ppl!!hahhz..but after all those shoputing running and jumping and shaking of heads here and dere..i still cpouldn't sleep well.Someone ask me today, :"u still like him?"i ans-ed:"dunno lllehh"...deep in my heart, in my soul,in my mind,i and only myself will noe wat is the real ans..wat is the ans..and the ans will always be the same..nv change..

miss u and really treasure the good moments wid u in my heart and soul..i can only use the enjpoyable moment durinhg the open hse to make me stop thinking of it..i cried in the bus..i cried..despite alone..dunno wat to do..couldnt take ti any more jus cry..tears jus drop drop drop...forgive and forget is wat i shall do now..[depressed]

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today open hse is a very tiring one..but really an interesting one..always feeling happy, but when happiness come,sadness come at the same time,yeah,life is like wat i am going to say now..god jus dun wan us or rather me to enjoy the good moments longer..this is unfair!!!
whether true or not,i will still wan to hear the things my heart tells me to do or say..my decision my heart make for me is,dun do anyting stupid jus becos u are the one..u are the one i have in my mind..tat y my heart telll me to do such deciison by not bothering and care bout u ...really mann,i have to learn how to bo chap u le..remember DUN LOOK FOR ME WHEN U NEED ME..i am not ur dog..>.<

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印象派的爱情---pan jia li

爱绕多少个弯才能有答案
我问过朋友回答都不相同
我把爱当图案拼凑出印象
就算不写实都可以添上感想

莫内画的教堂涂满了夕阳
常玉画的花朵总行只影单
在最浪漫地方总是会隐藏
别人看不见的小失望
毕加索的女人总是看远方
潘玉良的波斯菊特别倔强
彷佛最失落时心却最勇敢
把渴望画成了阳关

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wat a close shave!!**whew** lucky for me there is always good dog helping me for my java..if not i will think i will fail this stupid HOOP subj alread.y.really. I really wan to thanx u a lot for helping me..even though i noe u du lan, but u still bother to stay up late to 2 pplus and wake up early to help me compete my assignment,and ended u scolded me..but honestly speaking, when u scolded me, i nearly cried,i feel i am useless and always bring u prob..but i really dunno how to do..so i have to ask for ur help..i really have to buy u sth in return but i diunno wat u like lehh..maybe when i go australia i will take a look on wat things might be of ur liking..if can try to give me a hint bout wat u like..((: U may say u R not greedy,but from wat colin's feedback, watever u say, u always will wan sth one..this is call human nature..hahaz..so i will still buy u things la..if not i feel rather guilty..hahah((; thanx lots!!!

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Java R seriously sux mann..i really dunno wat is java..wat is java?! During java lesson, wat i am doing?...seriously i dunno..i dunno..i really dunno...this tym round the Hoop really make me worry so much tat i nearly wan to cry mann..but i still slp..cos i noe tat even though if i dun slp,is still no diff at all..really..no use at all!!! i really wan to buck up for my java..but tinking tat i have been left behind so far beind already,i really feel sianz..really...i wann to stop studying java..really ..the sight of java really make me sick!!!

Today sunmition date already,nth come out..i can go and die le lahh!!!!!

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Having rather a down feeling these few days..i just feel like a over loaded water balloon tat is going to burst soon,yes..i do agree that i enjoy myself in the training camp,and i do accept that u noe in this kind of camp wid the kind of frends in the camp like darren, yang yang all these ppl,once in a while their tongue will wiggle here and dere..but if he is not there,u guyz wan to say how much jus go ahead,but now he is there,and even sit beseide yang yang for some cases,still address me as the name??!! there is nth wrong really for ppl to like another person and even confess..nth wrong..is jus tat i din accept and the prob lies now is din accept oso means together?!wow..wonderful logic!!**applause**(SARCASTIC)

still say me look like ah lian?u oso look l8ke ah beng wat..from every aspect u r! i am jus not very happie wid yang yang for saying that to me somemore in front of u..u underatnd?it may be nth,but i feel jus as if it's sth..i wun feel good..u understand..i really hope u will fully underatnd the situation at that time..i may choose to ignore,but u may not noe that they have been making fun of me dunno since when..i really have to choose this way to stop it..unless u have a betta way to solve this prob lorh..pls,tell me..

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staying in a computer lab feel of the smell of java coding,indeed make me more sick than ever..but for the sake of my hoop,i have to perservere..one step by one step..reaching the end of year 1..coming! in other words,the mp is coming..i am scared..i will wan to take c# in 2.4..sure one..pure java i will not make it one..sure one..

sth harppie today,i pass my french!yes!i taught i will fail!!!Even though i jus pass by one mark, bt i am happy..at least i pass..heng arh!!! today i morning running a fever,i tink becos of the stupid bloody cold air con in the bus..somemore is 969..al the way from sembawang to tampines..i cold until like hell..then gonna fever..but cnt be helped..i cant be borrowing jacket from those ppl de ma..so fever and then flu..in fench class i cnt pay attention cos of flu..my eyes have tears that keep roling down..until i really wan to get to slp..going to sch bookshop to by panadol for flu..so many!! so i din buy...then i ask ben for help..see his hse got not..

Luckily got..then i go his hse get the medcine..he say not sleepy one..but i eat arh,like wan to slp lehh..so tired,but cos of java,i have to ensure i dun slp back..for the sake of java!!thanx yap..at least my flu stop....scared tomoro still got..how?

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The feelings the stupid virus bring to me at the flavours is damn blood scary..no la,but actually cnt balme them cos i already running a flu during the 2 weeks holiday..so now i finanlly bing dao le..luckily got one chinese medicine always manage to bring me back to life after a good sleep..hahhaz..

By the way,have to thanx ah boon a lot..u really help me a lot in my dcnk mann..i one person sure cnt complete one..luckily u help me mann..and my hoop luckily got "guai gou" help me..if not i oso die..haahz..now left cmsk..week 12 must summit draft week 14 summit the real thingy..OMG! fk!my life is all bout those stupid projz mann..haiz..

i really cnt ta han poly proj life mann..okie..full stop! i shall stop complaining if not i will be hunag lian po soon liao.ahahz..back to lesson lorh!!((:

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sian sian lect!!!not use to studying even though is just the short 2 weeks holiday..i really bo liao until i take this photo and start to upload in my bloog and the nexxt moment jus start blogging..hahaz..teaching Ip addresses but din teach really tat much oso..haiz..sianz arh!!!i really admire those ppl hu can really stay put for several hours studying..haiz..walau eh..what is Ip packet header?!Wat TTL(Time-to-Live)KNS!!! cnt take ti mann..sianz but cnt say.anyway our stupid dcnk exam..22% failure for our term test..omg!!how can it be?!i thougt it is quite easy? if majority of ppl think is easy then still like tat,then i tink i will oso fail or is not so worse case,maybe one just pass grade nia..walau..i shock xia..so badly done arh..aiyo!!!Cui liao lorh..omg...

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omg..new year day 1st of jan 2008..is a boring dae for me..i did nth at home..because of the stupid high rise of the electrical thingy..my ma dun really allow me to play my gunbound..not to even mention playing la..even surfing the net oso cnt..only rise to 7.5% only ma..need to be so like this one cnt that one cnt meh..like tat in future i cnt use com at home le lorh..sad sad..very sad..
Apart from those boring moments i have spent at home,i am rather upset these few days..despite noeing that time is very tight for <> but i still expect a reply from u la..dun be so mia..only see me when u need me..really u noe..walau i damn irritated mann by ur attitude like tat..is very disappointing..dun take my feelings for granted..nv!once all tat has gone,u R oso gone..believe me..and dun expect any more helps from me..No Help Given!okie?!

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Me?Adeline!Tp IT student..
& yupz 25/7/90 is my first cry(=
Love SweetHeart Cries U&miie

Nth much lorh..for me to know for u to find out!