♥ Saturday, December 15, 2007
7:33 AM
[a very bad day where i feel super guilty]
yesterday..it was supposed to be a wonderful day for me,i mean for us but things jus turns out to be so coincidence...how can it be possible?! i nice job interview had made me feel guilty..I mean everyone will feel bad if u have brought back bad memories of some one..i am the stupid girl who had stupidly brought back very bad memories for ben..this is how it had started...firstly me and jamie had recieved a call respectively from a person nv mention wat the fucking company..of cos the fucking person did mention but is only when the starting of the first call! nvm, this may be my fault cos i nv ask properly..okie..secondly,we even planned to go to eouns together yesterday, even before that day de nite, ben and me were actually planning for the next day.We were actually tinking wat shall we do during the 3-4hrs in sch?we actually wanted to go tm to buy my bag..but i change my mind to buy it in australia instead...so we will stay in sch instead.then we decide to play pool in sch..but after the paper itself, ben say he wanna go home pla GB..omg..okie nvm..so me and jamie and cy they all we went to market to have our lunch, there we bought our rubic cube! ..and we really spend the rest of the time doing it...
Finally 2.15pm le, we saw ben, as usual he is late..nth special, so we take mrt to the place.when reaching we sms that jeremy that intro us here..telling him we had reach the place..so he direct us to the place..when we reach the place, i realise that ben actually noe the place! wid him around we can relax abit,cos he noe ma.. ben saw a grp of "bengs" walking into the bilding, then he told me say confirmed thode guys also go for that 'job interview', i dun believe..but when i went there, i realise is true..sad..ya.so even before we start the interviewing, ben told me say, if is Venture Era,he dun wan..it is a cheating company!some sort of la..so he start to told us wat happen to his frend la..but i still couldnt get it, until when we smsing then i noe wat happen..Ben then saw his ite frends 2 somemore, then he asked them qns..realise is true! is something like selling the stupid products thingy la..is jus say until very chim until u realise is a plot man..and the stupid yewf! i told u that u are going to do that selling after ur first position but u jus tink tat it is a long term one?my god! jus remember, there are risk!8hrs of training plus we spend that bloody 3hrs sitting there to listen to those ppl tok?and if worse senario, u sper suay,follow oone stupid kuku manager,din get to close any deals,U R DEAD! u waste a lot of time i tell u..the company wun let u earn so much one i tell u..let us listen to how good the water is is already so obvious we are going to sell those stupid products already!businessman the most improtant ting is TIME!do u tink they will waste such time when we dun need it at all?!no!!!so?!okie, i not trying to emphasize how ..u are but jus tink carefully, is that the long term money u wan to earn?is up to u...jamie at least she got a stable job at guardian, so i nt so worry bout her.. I noe why ben is so angry la..i noe..jus like someone being force to buy the roduct home cos u din sell any..is the same thing..Ben..sry lehh..i really fell guilty,not only i waste ur precious time for ur gnbound,but i also bring back bad memories of those days..the sakae treat can treat it as nth already..cos i feel really guilty mann..even if treat me one sweet i aso got nth to say..but i will be grateful to u...hahaz..really..sry..k?
